Slowly, the numbness began eating away at my skin
I was left lifeless, a hint of pure happiness light years away
Time ticked by with what felt like one second every hour,
And I questioned if I would ever be able to feel once again, some day
This is when you found your way into my life
One message every hour turned into 50
We laughed the nights away
6am, looking at the clock but it never bothered us
We were 300 miles apart,
But in those nights, we stood side by side
When the emotions slowly began to creep through my veins,
It was good to feel alive
You were the one that brought me back from the inanimate state I was drowning in
As my subconscious gasped for air,
Your soul was the only one to hear the hidden screams
You reached inside and carried me home
So,
Please explain to me why you are now the one who holds my head under water
Why do I yearn for your words but despise them all at once?
The back and forth,
Overthinking,
Dragging my mind in one hand, with my heart in the other, across a bed of nails
Everyday pondering the question,
"Do you even care?"
Get out of my fucking head
Let go of my soul and set me free
Glaring at the screen on my phone, waiting for it to glow
It is not the name I want to see appear,
A pit in my stomach filled with frustration begins to form
Pathetic
My heart, a rose whose life has come to an end
A slight touch to the petals,
One by one,
It begins to crumble in the palm of your hand
