Fearless (Jasper Whitlock Fanfiction)

Part 9 (Laila's POV)

Running with Jasper and just letting go had been an exquisite feeling. It was nice to finally do something other than dealing with pack life where we never had any time for ourselves. Especially with what we had been dealing with lately, with vampires trying to constantly kill that human girl Bella. We were always on the defensive protecting and guarding the human. It is our duty to protect all humans even if they are really annoying. 

I know I shouldn't be with Jasper, it goes against everything we are. Shifters are meant to protect humans from vampires not fall in love with them. Every time I am with Jasper it feels like my soul is boring torn into two different directions. One part of me wants to rip him apart, this part senses he is dangerous. The other part of me wants to hold him in my arms and fall in love with him as mates should. 

I told myself I would stay away from him but I keep finding myself running back to him. Every touch invades my body and holds me down as if I suddenly have chains on my feet that won't let me leave. I should not want him but I do. I want to allow him to consume me. When I am not with him, I'm wishing I was. I think about him constantly, he invades every thought.

Currently, the pack and I had nothing to do other than watching the Cullens to make sure they don't turn the human. We have not seen Jake in a while, not after the marriage. He is heartbroken even though she was never his to begin with. One day he will find someone and will forget Bella even exists. We're all waiting for that day as we can't stand to see Jacob so miserable. 

"Hey." Leah puts her hand on my shoulder as she takes a seat next to me on my porch. "Haven't seen you in a while, how have you been?"

I lean my head on Leah's shoulder before speaking. "I've been alright. I never thought I would imprint on a vampire. Everything is so complicated now, I do not know what to do." I sigh. "I feel like every choice I make when it comes to him is wrong. I should not want him." Leah rubs my back as I speak. "But I do." 

"I know what it's like to want someone you can not have. But you can have Jasper, the only one holding you back is yourself. You believe the pack will hate you for being with him but we stand with you as we always have, we are a family. All we want is to see you happy. You deserve to be happy." My eyes are full of tears as she speaks and I know she means it. 

"You really are my best friend, Leah." We hug for a couple of seconds, we have been best friends before we shifted. I will always be here for Leah and she will always be here for me. This is how it's always been and how it will always stay. Even when it feels like I don't have the pack to turn to, I know I have Leah. 

"Of course girl now come on, Emily dropped off some chocolate cookies and I don't want them." She says as she grabs my hand to help me up. The both of us hold hands as we walk quietly to Leah's house. 

Sometimes Emily drops off gifts or snacks for Leah. I think it's Emily's way of apologizing and trying to get Leah to talk to her. The three of us used to be best friends, thick as thieves. But after the Emily and Sam incident, Leah chooses to stay away from her. Me? I'm neutral, I know it's not Emily's fault that Sam imprinted on her. It's not Sam's fault either. You don't get to choose your imprint.

I understand why Leah chooses to stay away. She was head over heels in love with Sam, she would've done anything for him. But in the end, the imprint bond was too hard to fight. I sympathize with all three of them as I kind of understand what's happening. I tried to fight the imprint bond but it's got a hold on me and won't let go. I don't think I want it to let me go anymore, I'm tired of fighting. 

Walking into Leah's house, the smell of freshly baked cookies fills my nose. "Yummy." Biting into a cookie, it's as tasty as it looks. I definitely need to take baking lessons from Emily, she always makes the best snacks. 

 I'm about to take another bite when Sam's voice fills my head. Leah and Laila, come to the house we all need to talk.

Leah and I exchange glances before walking out of the house. "What do you think this is about?" I ask.

Leah shrugs her shoulder. "I do not know, maybe it's about Jacob."

"When is it not about Jacob or Bella?" Leah laughs. 

Opening the door to Emily's house, all of my packmates are sitting around the table talking in hushed tones. Emily is standing in the kitchen while Sam is seated at the head of the table silently watching everybody. Leah and I take our seats next to her younger brother Seth. This must be serious. The only person who isn't here is Jacob but that's not surprising, we should be used to him not being here by now.

"So Bella's home from her honeymoon with the leach."  He spits out the word leach. I internally groan, this is about Bella again. 

"So? Is Jacob chasing her again?" Leah asks in her snarky tone and Sam sends her a dark glare. 

"Well, she told Charlie she is sick and won't let him see her. Something seems off about this whole situation." He says as he glances around at every pack member. "When I talked to Jacob about it he almost seemed defensive. Something is not right about this and we need to be ready for anything." 

"Do you think Jacob is hiding something dangerous?" Paul asks sounding angry. "I will go over there and find out what they are up to." 

Sam shakes his head no. He then turns and looks at me. "Laila, I was hoping you would go over there and find out what they are doing." Of course. 

"Sure, but if it comes down to a fight, you guys can not hurt Jasper." I bare my teeth at them showing them I mean business. I will not allow anyone to hurt Jasper. 

"Put your teeth away." He snaps. "We will not hurt Jasper." 

Leah follows me as I get out of my seat and walk out the door. "Be careful, okay?" 

I nod before shifting into my wolf. I'm going to find out what's going on.