Little one shots

I'm not suicidal!

I got this from Kesha's song Suicidal (Just A Little Sad). This being said, I don't own any of this. Warning! There is cutting. You have been warned!!! Cyborg is 24, Robin and Starfire are 23, and Beastboy and Raven are 21.

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   Raven had been acting weird. She was in her room a lot more, she winced when they grabbed her left arm, and even when they wore regular clothes she wore long sleeves. The Titans decided to see if anything was up.

   "Titans, meet in the common room for a team meeting." Robin's voice spoke over the intercom. The others were already in the common room, but he had to make it sound normal. 

   The doors slid open and Raven floated on, pausing when she saw her friends. Her empathic senses were flooded with worry and concern.

   I know I haven't been my sunny self these days
But that don't mean you have to go
And hide the razor blades
So thank you for your good intention
But I don't need this intervention

   "Raven, is everything okay?" Cyborg asked. Raven started slowly backing away. Cyborg saw this and put the tower on lock down. Raven's back hit the door. The worry was flooding her senses, making her want to come clean, but they would judge her.

   "I'm fine." She said. Her monotone broke slightly, but only Beastboy could hear it.

   Would you please just go away
I'm not suicidal
I'm not in denial
I'm not really feelin that bad
Just wait and we'll find out
Everything I whined about
Losin the illusions I had
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad

   Raven sat on her bed looking at her wrist. Seven long, bloody gashes across it. Her blood didn't look like most. It was a dark red, almost black. Her eyes were filled with tears. Though it wasn't from the cuts. No it was because Beastboy would have a different girl he was dating at the tower every couple weeks. She heard a knock on her door.

   "Who is it?"

   "It's all of us. Are you sure you're okay?" Cyborg's voice came through the door.

   "I told you, I'm fine. It's just, I'm going through a phase." She lied. She sensed their doubt.

   Why don't we say
I'm goin through a phase
And that I got a lot of stuff
To reevaluate
But I am sure that my condition
Will improve if you just listen
I'm asking you to go away
I'm not suicidal
I'm not in denial
I'm not really feelin that bad
Just wait and we'll find out
Everything I whined about
Losin the illusions I had
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad
I'm just a little sad

   Beastboy sniffed the air. It smelt like blood.

   "Something's not right." He whispered to Cyborg. Cyborg nodded and opened Raven's door. Just as it opened, she used the bloody razor blade to slice a new cut. They gasped, catching Raven's attention. She looked up and saw their shocked and horrified faces.

   "Guys,t-this isn't what it l-looks like!" Starfire looked at her face. They were all staring at the wounds.

   "You are not hurting yourself with the blade of razors?" Raven looked away.

   "Maybe it is what it looks like..." They looked at her face, seeing the tears that were finally falling.

   I can't believe that you're
You're still standing here
I shoulda locked the door
You shoulda disappeared
To late
Just don't look at me that way
   Raven looked into their faces, then looked away. It didn't take an empathic to sense their worry, concern, horrified, and disappointed emotions.

   "Please stop looking at me like that." She said quietly, her voice sad and weak. They had never seen her so vulnerable. Except for Beastboy after Malchoir(sp?). Beastboy was the only one that noticed the razor blade rising to her wrist. He grabbed it and threw it.

   "Hey!" He looked her in the eyes, his burning with rage.

   "Don't ever do something like this again!" She nodded her head, scared of what he could do. He saw this and his eyes softened. He pulled her into a hug.

   "Heal your arm." She put her hand over her arm, a blue aura surrounding it. The cuts healed and she looked at her friends.

   "I'm sorry." She whispered.

   "Why did you do it Rae?" Cyborg asked softly. Raven blushed.

   "Because, it made the emotional pain go away." She saw their confused looks and explained.

   "My emotional pain got to much to handle. So I took a razor and sliced my wrist one. It stung slightly, but, with each drop of blood, I felt my pain being taken away. I started doing it every time I felt that pain. That's why I wore long sleeves and winced when you guys grabbed this arm." She hung her head in shame. Robin realized something.

   "You didn't tell us what 'emotional pain' you were experiencing." Raven blushed again.

   "Unrequited love." She stated simply. Beastboy got jealous.

   "With who?" Cyborg asked protectively.

   "You guys will laugh at me."

   "No we won't Friend Raven." Raven sighed.

   "Please don't laugh." They nodded at the desperate look in her eyes.

   "It's, it's Beastboy."

   "Who says it's unrequited?" Beastboy asked. Raven's head jerked up.

   "What?" He didn't answer. Instead, he gave her a soft, chaste kids on the lips. Her eyes bugged and she blushed. The others giggled and left the room, leaving the other two to spend some time together.