The life of a broken girl

Chads football game

Excuse me, thank you I say to the people letting us in. We have a good view my dad says. Ya it's great. Whooo let's go chad my dad cheers. I notice chad looking through the stands probably for the source of who said his name until he spots us a pained look forming on his face. The coach says something to him making him look away only then to run on the field. The games starting. The play begins but chad doesn't move. The coach yells something at him breaking him out of his trance starting to run only to get tackled. The game is a few more plays in and he's not doing so good. I've seen him play before, he's never been this bad.

Dad wanted to go down to the field to check on him. The coach and him are friends so he allows it. Hey coach my dad says as we made it on the field. How are you doing coach says bro hugging him. (A:N Ok I never really get the guy bro hug) WHAT THE H**l ARE YOU DOING HERE!!! Chad my dad says trying to reason with him. NO don't Chad me my bro says. By now everyone was looking even the game stopped. I can see why, waiting for the star quarterback. Stop you guys are making a scene I say. Stay out of this Ivy. She heard our argument my dad tells him. GOOD maybe she's finally come to her senses about you that your not all that. You make it seem like I don't have a right to be angry. I do I have that right to be angry. He's practically screaming now filled with rage and anger I'm a little afraid. Ivy you got him 24/7. Oh Ivy's having a rough day, Ivy couldn't sleep last night. Chad please I beg trying to get him to stop. He didn't listen he continued. Ivy has it worse. Ivy are you ok. Ivy lost her mom. Where is chad lost his mom. Chad how are you doing. Chad are you okay. Their was none of that I had none of that. I had to hold it all in for little miss breakable princess. I start to tune him out causing me to think about that day. Was their something I could've done. Maybe if I stopped it we wouldn't be where we are right now. Oh my I could've done something I could have saved her. If I had just complied with him. Went with him she would still be alive. He wouldn't have shot her. It's all my fault. She died because of me my selfishness.

Before I knew it my legs where buckling up and I was falling to the floor encased in tears. Ivy my dad and brother yelled. I I it's all m my f Fa Fault I cry out. I could barely speak the few words I could coming out as a mumble. Chad steps back a little bit in thought. We need to get her home someone said. My vision was blurring in and out. The feeling of being picked up only than to realize I was in chads arms. Hey man you ok? I'm here for you man. I barely heard. I don't think chad said anything to them if he did I didn't hear it. How could I just forget something like that. Why didn't he just take me. I should've let him take me.

I was still in tears when we reached the car. It felt like I was back at the very being. All the progress I made didn't even matter anymore. I should've know I couldn't be fixed. I'm broken with no way of mending it back together. I can here my dad and brother talking but I can't understand them. It's like muffled to me. I'm still going in and out of vision so I barely know what's going on. Before I knew it I was being lifted again. That must mean we are home. All the sudden I was snuggled up in my bed drifting of to sleep.

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