Secretly Yours

Simula

"Andi, I'm going out with my friends. Stay here and tell manang Kora to lock the doors." He pick up his car key and look at me. "If something bad happen text me, okay?"

Ginulo nya ang buhok ko bago pa ako makatango. And he smiled with satisfaction ng makita ang buhok kong nagmukha ng pugad ng mga ibon dahil sa gulo.

"Stay here, alright? H'wag ka ng lalabas gabi na."

Standing infront of me is my brother named Aston Martin. Looking so handsome on his white bottom down polo that fold onto his forearm, with a pair of black pants and a combat shoes. Neat ang buhok nya na papunta sa likod ang direksyon. Dumagdag pa sa karisma nya ang hikaw sa kaliwang tainga na kumikinang sa liwanag ng ilaw. But, he removes that piercing when he's on office. For profesionalism daw.

"Yeah. You should go, baka hinihintay ka na ng mga kaibigan mo. Ingat ka sa pagmamaneho."

Hinatid ko sya sa pintuan at humalik muna sa pisngi bago sya hinatid ng tingin papasok sa kanyang sports car. Nang makitang wala na ay sinara ko agad ang pinto bago kumaripas ng takbo paakyat sa kwarto ko, and open my phone.

Two messages.

I open it quickly.

Handsome: I miss you.

Handsome: Can I call?

Kinikilig na nagreply ako.

Me: Tommorrow morning nalang before you go to your office. I know you are busy.

Tinitigan ko muna ng ilang saglit ang past messages namin akala ko hindi sya mag rereply kasi busy sya but to my surprise he replied.

Handsome: Just a minute. I just want to see you.

I smiled after I read it, hindi pa man ako nakakapag reply ng tumawag na sya via facetime.

Inayos ko muna ang nagulo kong buhok bago sinagot ang tawag.

Bumungad sakin ang gwapo nyang mukha.

"Hi." I greeted. "Sa kotse ka parin?" Tanong ko ng mapansing nasa loob parin sya ng sasakyan nya.

He show me his manly smile na lalong nakakapag painlove sakin. Everytime he's smiling at me laging bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Six months na kaming into relationship pero ganun parin ang epekto nya sakin.

He lean on the backrest of his seat at pumungay ang mga mata na tumingin sakin.

"I missed you." Paos nyang sabi. "Ilang araw tayong hindi nagkita dahil sa trabaho. How was your day?"

He put his finger on his lips and played with it habang nakatuon ang siko sa bintana ng sasakyan at matamang nakatingin sa camera.

"Ayos lang naman. Uhm, intern na ako ngayon sa company namin. Ginaguide naman ako ni kuya sa trabaho kaya hindi naman ako masyado nahihirapan mag adjust kahit kakasimula ko lang."

Sinandal ko muna ang cellphone ko sa vase dito sa study table ko, kita parin naman ako sa camera. I just wanted to tied my hair up into a messy bun dahil naiinitan ako kahit bukas ang aircon.

He is there silent and just watching me.
I saw myself on the screen. Nakapantulog na ako at sleeveless ang pang itaas kaya kitang-kita na ang collarbone ko na binagayan ng mahaba, maputi at makinis kong leeg. Hinayaan kong mahulog ang iilang hibla ng buhok ko sa aking mukha, saka tinanggal ang aking salamin sa mata.

"How about you? How was your day?"

He keep playing with his lips at lalo pang pumungay ang mga mata.

"You are beautiful. And I can't believe you are mine."

Natawa ako sa sinabi nya.

Lagi naman nyang sinasabi na maganda ako pero ganun at ganun parin lagi ang epekto sa akin. And ofcourse sa kanya lang ako. Ako nga ang hindi makapaniwala na akin sya.

Imagine that the hot and gorgeous man like him sa akin nainlove samantalang marami namang babae ang nagpapahayag ng pag-ibig sa kanya, but still he choose me over them. And I am really grateful about that.

He is my first boyfriend and hopefully to be my last. Sana nga kami na.

"And you are handsome, too."

I giggled and he smiled.

Nawala lang ang atensyon nya sakin ng may kumatok sa bintana ng kotse nya.

"I gotta go. Stay home, okay? I love you."

"Okay. I love you, too."

He hung up and I jump on my bed to yell my feelings. Lagi nalang akong kinikilig tuwing nag I-I love you sya sakin at mukhang hindi na magbabago yun.

He is Jaxon my secret boyfriend. We still keeping our relationship private dahil bawal pa daw ako mag boyfriend. That's what my brother said. He said that I am still young even though I'm already twenty-two. Tsaka na daw ako magboyfriend kapag twenty-five na ako.

Lagi akong sumusunod kay kuya dahil kaming dalawa nalang ang magkasama. He said that boys my age just wanted to play around. Alam nya daw yun dahil dumaan sya sa ganun. He just wanted to protect me and don't cry because of that. I believe in him dahil ayoko din namang masaktan, but then this handsome Jaxon come and ruin what I should believe in. Nakalimutan kong takot sumubok magmahal na baka maiwan lang ako sa huli. But he made me feel that I am worrh loving kahit hindi ako palaayos. He saw me different from other girls and at first I saw him just like my brother. A playboy type. But he said that he is done on that stage, he wanted a serious relationship and that is with me.

He courted me for four months long, hindi ko na lang lalo pang pinatagal dahil alam kong seryoso naman sya sakin. Naguguilty lang ako dahil hindi ko sya mapakilala kay kuya as my boyfriend, officially. Natatakot ako na baka magalit sya sakin dahil hindi ako sumunod sa kanya and other excuses.

Naiintindihan naman yun ni Jaxon, hindi nya ako pinipilit. He's giving me time. So we just keep our relationship a secret.
Nagkikita at nagkakasama lang kami if my brother is not around. I always think that this love is forbidden, but then he always assure me that everything will be alright just in time. We just have to wait for that time.

As much as I want to tell the world that Jaxon is mine, I can't.