OH NO im just gonna embarrass myself thinking THAT I would ever have a chance with her.. in the end, i cant compare myself to wilbur. I have no chance ugh.
I feel really vulnerable right now, i have the mood to jump out of a tall building. I dont know, but what if ? What if, what what if, what if.. this is the question im questioning my whole time right now.
Being rejected is the worst thing that can happen right ? At least after that i would know how she feels about it.
But on the other side, if i wont try, i ll never know. And thats something that motivated me.
I said to myself quietly "im gonna do this, what bad can happen anyway ?"
So i did it..
