Bucky POV
I came home late, again. Therapy sessions have been longer than usually and Sam has been suspicious, I know I should tell him about me seeing a therapist but I guess I'm embarrassed. I survived WWII, survived a deathly fall, survived torture by hydra for 70 years and I still cry over stupid nightmares, I never feel truly safe as I know the soldier is always there in the back of my head waiting for his next orders.
As I walk into our small apartment I see Sam standing in the kitchen with a worried but angry face, once he notices me he sets his mug on the counter and walks over to me in the doorway. I slowly close the door as he begins to lecture me about how I should have been home an hour ago.
Sam POV
Once I see Bucky walk through the door the anger and mix emotions I felt all come together, he should've been home an hour ago. It's obvious he's keeping something from me, I know he doesn't trust me fully and that's fair with everything he has been through but he just has been sneaky and I'm starting to suspect that he is cheating on me. I storm up to him questioning where he was and lecturing him on how he was suppose to be back an hour ago.
"what do you mean you can't tell me where you were?!?" I question
"I just don't want to ok!" he yells obviously frustrated with my questioning
"are you cheating on me" I ask flat out, this was shocking to the both of us because I am never blunt I always try and take my time with him and be as understanding as I can be but I just wanted the truth.
"what?!? no!" he says as if it's the most outlandish thing he has ever heard. "bullshit! you never tell me where you go and you're gone for hours not answering me, just tell me the truth James!" I respond while waving my hand in the air towards him.
Bucky POV
as Sam raises his hand towards me, I freeze staring with wide eyes as I try to block my face with my hand. I can feel my breathing become uneven as I get memories of the hydra agents and the abuse from them if the soldier did not comply. I feel completely frozen staring at the wall and there is nothing I can do, I feel hopeless and I feel stuck just like how I was stuck with hydra for 70 years.
Sam POV
I see Bucky flinch and stare at me like a deer in headlights with his arm suddenly raised blocking his face as he moves to stare at the wall, I can see him shaking and tears building up in his eyes. I stare at him in confusion for a second wondering what I did until I look up to see my hand in the air towards him. I quickly realize my mistake and put my hand down immediately. "Bucky?" I ask hesitantly not touching him until I know its ok to touch him, "Bucky I would never hit you" I say as softly as I could, I feel horrible I would never hurt him.
After a while maybe 45 minutes, me and bucky were sitting on the floor while I whisper sweet nothings, still not touching him. Finally I start getting mumbles of verbal responses. "Bucky can I hug you" I ask gently, bucky nods and I hug him and try to be a gentle as I can. " I want you to know I would never hurt you, okay?" I tell him, "I know" he responds in a hoarse whisper.
"I love you" I tell him, he nods with his head resting against my shoulder, "I love you too" he mumbles.
