Broken hope

Brenden-5

" I love you " He whispered. Chills went down my back just from his hot breath by my neck.

" You...... You do?" I stuttered.

" Yes. Please Maria will you be my girlfriend?" He asked. I didn't know what to say. How to answer. was it a good idea if i said yes? should I say no?

" o....... Ok." I say.

" Really?" He asks and I shake my head yes not so sure if I should have said yes. He then leans in and kisses me deeply. And I reluctantly kiss him back. 

And after that day. I thought I was in love. Brenden was my boyfriend and he was great. The first week he was so sweet and caring, bought me gifts, took me to dinner, talked to me all the time, hugged me from behind, surprised me, kissed me. He was perfect. I still loved Zach but I loved Brenden too and Zach wasn't coming back.

When Brenden took me to a party one weekend it was crazy. When we first got there it was packed and Brenden told me it was ok. I didnt know anyone there.Brenden yelled to me and said he was gonna get us drinks. So i sat down and waited for him.

The party went on and about 20 minuets passed and Brenden wasn't back. i got worried as to where he was so i got up and went to the kitchen. I looked around the people but he wasn't here. I was confused. 'where did he go?'

I walked around looking for him. no sign of him. I went outside... no Brenden. No where. I whent back inside and some tall musclular guy with short brown hair came up to me. he was waring a white t-shirt that showed his muscles. He smiles and says,

" Why hello there cutie."  And he comes closer to me and puts his arm around me.

" Wanna dance?" He asks.

" Uh no... sorry im here with somebody." i say. disbelief crosses his eyes.

" With who?" He asks.

" Uh, Brenden. Brenden Sharp." i say.

He chuckles and laughs out, " Ha, I don't think so. he just walked up stairs with a sexy blonde. I don't think your his tonight."

" What...." i whisper. My breath quickens and i Turn away from the guy. Walking to the stairs i don't believe the guy. Brenden wouldn't do that. i hike up the long stairs and go to the one door that is closed. Slowing my pace as i get quicker I fear what might be behind it.

i grab the handel and open the door.

My eyes begin to fill with tears at the sight. Brenden with some girl in the bed.

" Brenden?!?" I cry out. He turns to me and gives me a small smirk.

" Fuck off Maria. Im done with you. Never really loved you in the first place."  Brenden spits out at me. My heart feels like it just fell to my stomach.

I start crying and I run out of the house hands covering me face. I keep running with Brendens words repeating in my head over and over.

" Fuck off Maria. Im done with you. Never really loved you in the first place."

" Never loved you"

It was all a lie. I was just a 'replacement'. Nothing more then another girl. Everything he did was all meaningless. And I thought that i was really in love.

I stop running when i get to this small patch of trees. I go into them and i then fall to my knees. Hands covering my eyes I cry out. loud painful sobs. The look of Brenden's face when i called out his name. All it showed was disgust. Am I really that worthless? Do I deserve this? Cry after cry after cry i sit there. It begins raining to make it all worse.

What do i expect. I was 15. dateing a 17 year old. I should have said no.

But he said he loved me and i believed him. I hadn't heard someone tell me that in a long time and all i wanted was someone to love me. so I said yes. Because he said he loved me. But I was wrong. He was lying.

I stand up and wipe the tears away. I then start walking the long walk back home in the rain. He said he loved me, i said it too, but the only difference was I didnt lie to him. when I got home I just when to my room and sat on my bed. Drenched from the rain and cold. But i felt numb from what happened.

I pulled up my sleeve and grabbed my razor and i cut. Two times. I looked at the cuts and just waited and watched the blood flow out. I'm worthless anyway. I thought.

After that I fell asleep not wanting to wake up.

Pulling myself out of the old memory I gaze at the picture. I close my old journal that I had found and was browsing through.

The picture was of Brenden and I. I out it in that journal and forgot about it. And when I found the journal, I found the picture inside and the memory came to me. I wish I couldn't remember these things so clearly but they stick in my head. i crumple the picture that was all lies and throw it out the window.

I dont think I could ever believe the words ' i love you' again. My mom didnt mean them, My father didnt mean them, Brenden didnt mean them, and I'm sure zach has forgotten all about me. Everyone who has told me those words lied.

I get up and grab my bag and head out the door and on my way to school. Waring a pair of jeans a grey t-shirt my sneakers and my dark blue hoddie.

I get to school in about 15 minuets and i go straight to my first period class. I sit down in the back and slowly pull out my notebook. I have about 5 minuets before class starts so I put my head down, tired.

Suddenly i feel someone sitting down next to me and pulling out stuff.

I lift my head to come face to face with....

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