Broken hope

Chapter-10

I feel someone moving around and I open my eyes. It's still really dark. When I realize where I'm at I see Zane standing up. I glance at the clock. 3:40 something AM. I groan and close my eyes. I whisper,

"What are you doing?" to Zane. He just tells me to shh. I keep my eyes closed to tired to care. Then I feel arms picking me up gently. I open my eyes and Zane is carrying me bridal style up the stairs. " Zane what are you doing?" I say in a sleepy voice.

"I'm taking you to a more comfortable place to sleep." He whispers in a deep voice.

" I have legs you know" I comment.

" Yeah I know, but you're tired and im being nice." He replies. I just put my arms around his neck and close my eyes again. Next thing I feel is him gently putting me down in a comfy bed. I feel him lay down next to me and pull the covers over us. And then I was fast asleep again.

When I woke up it was bright and I was basically cuddling Zane. Our faces were right next to each other and his arm was around my waist holding me against him. He was still sleeping. It felt weird to be this close to him and have him holding me like this but, honestly I liked it. I couldn't get rid of the smile on my face.

" Hey Zane." I whisper loudly. He moans a little and pulls me closer if that's even possible.

"Don't leave." He moans in a sexy sleepy voice. I laugh and move a little.

" what happens if I do?" I ask in a teasing voice. and I start to move away.

" I wont let you" he says while opening his eyes; And Pulls me on top of him, wrapping his arms around my side too fast and a little to tight.

" Ouch!" I yelp. he lets go of me quickly.

"Oh my god! I'm so sorry Maria I didn't mean to, I forgot about your bruises and stuff. I'm so sorry." He blurts out.

"It's okay. I'm fine" I assure him and smile. He gives me an uneasy, worried look.

"Really Zane I'm fine." I claim.

"Okay." He replies.

I get off him realizing I was in an awkward position. He gets up after me and half way to the door I stop. Zane runs into me not paying attention.

"Oh, sorry. Why'd you stop?" He questions. I turn around to face him and I ask sheepishly, "Where's the bathroom?" He grins and laughs a bit.

"Down the hall and to the left, You'll see it." He explains.

"Thanks." I tell him and walk out to find it.

I walk out of the bathroom and go back to Zane's room.

"Zane?" I call out. But he wasn't in the room. I look around and notice a couple boxes. Probably hasn't finished unpacking. On the walls are a couple posters.  He has a tall dresser with a small clock and small TV on top. It's 12:02 PM. wow we slept long. Next to the TV was a brand new looking Xbox with a short stack of games by it. I walk over to a small dark colored shelf with CDs on it. I pick through the CDs. We had the same music taste. I put the CDs back and look at his bed. It was probably a queen size, it sat on a wood bed frame that was old fashioned looking. He had a nice room.

I turn around and walk out the door. I should probably look for Zane. I walk down the stairs, and past the living room. he wasn't there. I hear noises in the kitchen. I wonder to the small doorframe and find Zane half way in the fridge. I cant help but smile. He backs out with an apple in his mouth and his hands full of a mixture of things. He sets it all on the counter and I just laugh at him. He laughs too.

His laugh was so gentle, but it sounds so happy, I liked it a lot.

As I watched Zane cook, I started to think. 'What was I doing here?'  'Why haven't I left yet?' 'I need to get away from him and fast, this cant happen again, only bad things happen to me.'

"Maria?" Zane asked again.

"Huh?" I say pulling out of my thoughts.

" I asked if you wanted some orange juice." Zane said while pulling down a glass from the cupboard.

" Yes please." I answer, and watch him pull out a second glass.  

After breakfast Zane goes to the living room and turns on the T.V. I slowly sit down next to him. I don't make eye contact nor do I say anything I just silently watch the screen although my mind is elsewhere.

" I have to go." I blurt out. Zane turns and looks at me, I meet his eyes and he's confused.

"What now? why?" He asks.

" Uh, I just have to. Thank you for everything." I say and stand up quickly making my way for the door. I can hear Zane following me.

" Maria wait!" He shouts as I open the door. I stop and look at him.

"Yeah?" I ask.

" Are you sure you want to leave? I mean you can stay." He offers.

" No its fine. and besides I live right next to you." I assure him. He doesn't say anything more, at least I don't let him because I'm already out the door and down his driveway before he could say anything.

I do feel a little bad for leaving so sudden, but its for my own good and his. I need to stay away from him. More than I like has already happened.

I walk up the Three steps that leads to my front door and open the door. The dead silence reassures me that no one is home and I jog up the flight of stairs into my room to come up with a plan to completely avoid Zane.