"Why you so secretive?" My girlfriend asked me. As I sit in the dark and think about it, its cause of pain. When you try and be open with people and they don't listen. Or that person ends up being the most evil person you could ever think of. You would be very secretive too. Someone told me secrets leads to lies and lies lead to regrets. They were right, but what am i supposed to do? I already dug my grave way below six feet under. My tongue is my weapon. I lie so well i believe my damn self. So many different personalities i forget my real self. But how else will i survive. Fuck life im done.
My name, well my real name Michelle. Michelle Keem. Im nineteen years young. My life would seem that easy to everyone who looks at it but the way i live, is hard as fuck, to me. No dreams, no nothing. Can't have anything in this world of mine.
"EMkay can i come in?" I here my little brother Cameron ask.
"Yeah lil man come on in." I roll over and check the clock as he climbed into my bed. "What you doing up at 2:31 in the morning?"
"I couldn't sleep. I keep thinking of mom." He said. I reached over to turn on my lamp. Hm my mom. i miss her.
"I think about her to Cam. And you if she finds out what time you went to bed, she would set a flame on your butt." Cameron looked at me with his light hazel eyes and smiled.
"Why do you do that?"he asked.
"Do what.?"
"Speak of mom like she is coming back?"
"Well to me lil man.. She never left." i said turning on my back to stare back at my ceiling.
"Can i sleep with you? "
"You know you aint have to ask."
"Well just thought i should." He said as he made himself even more comfortable. It took him about ten minutes for him to fall into a deep sleep. I grab my phone and walk to my kitchen. 'Baby are you up?' . i know she is up, well i hope she up. I go to the fridge knowing not shit was gon be in there but hey what's wrong with wishing. Feeling my phone buzz i check it.
'' Yeah im up baby wassup? ''
' We need to talk. ' I walk over to the corner and hop on it to sit down.
'' On my way over '' she reply.
She never shows how nervous she gets when i say that. I really dont say that line. this will be my second time. And their both important. It took her about 5 mins to get my house. she must have been speeding.
She invited herself in as i stayed on the counter. As she walked over to me, I could tell that she was nervous.
"Soo wassup ma?" She said not looking at me. It was dark in my condo. The only source of light was coming from the oven, I leave that on for Cam. But the little light that shined on her face showed she was nervous.
"Baby i don't want you thinking something is wrong between us, I called you cause I needed you." i hop off the counter, grabbed her by her hand and led her to the guest room. "I want you . " i laid back on the bed "
*****sorry for ending early wanted too see if I could catch someones eye*****
