Drowning sorrow「Levi x reader」✔

9.

Hi Levi,

Honestly I damn realized now not just from papers and the kids that visited me - Gabi and Falco you're dead. You died a honorable dead and all. But yeah no I'm proud on you- but my heart my heart was believing it all the time, Its almost stupid, I don't know. I feel like I invented a new kind of stupid. I really don't know. I just didn't wanted to break the reality I had.

There's just so much.. so much..

I still wanted to tell you even though, I never got to tell you them in person. There were these nice two teenagers came to vring me the message themselves. One of them brown hair the other blonde. They told me you were brave and saved them weeks before.

I always knew you'd be able to be good with kids

No matter what might has happened.

I know you're a good person no matter what you had to do for the country. I believe in you, you were toyed with badly, in propaganda. I wish you didn't had to do this.

I met up with your 2nd degree cousin. She was very nice, I know she seems cold but she's amazing! I think she is very nice and all. She didn't seemed to hate me which I'm thankful for.

I'm very sad, I was shattered as I got the message don't get me wrong. The point is when I will once open this letter again after years I'll get sad, but I don't wanna get depressed over this. I want to hold you in a good light. I know your a good person, but I want to hold you in a good light. Something I won't feel bad about.

Even though I promised myself this to be a rather happy goodbye letter this- took me multiple months. I wasn't able to touch a pen leaving the fact I couldn't touch paper without drowning in sorrow and grief. I'm sorry, I know I said: I'd pull myself in that case together, but there was no way for me.

If you wouldn't have joined things could have ended differently. Maybe, but at least you've done what you had to do. I guess...

Maybe this was never meant to be, it was all along meant to end with drowning in loss and sorrow.

But no matter what..

I'm proudly gonna hold on my last name. With all cost I'll always be
Y/n Ackerman.

See you in the next life maybe if that is meant to be.

Your wife Y/n Ackerman