God said the gift of knowing has been there all along. I just had not been seeking it wholly. While my heart has always known it's desires, my mind has been torn between emotions of the world & passions of the heart.
Sometimes I reflect on old work I have written. Sometimes for leisure or coping and a lot of times for school work.
College has not been the easiest journey but it has been the most rewarding. The fulfillment my heart gets from discovering new knowledge & ways of viewing the world is unspeakable.
I have written my life, or rather God has worked through me, to show me what is written for my life. I sit and reflect on a piece of writing I did for an assignment in undergrad. It was speaking into the future, writing about where I see myself on my 75th birthday.
Ja'Quaisa Murray
September 8, 2018
HDF 304-01
Reflection 1
Today is January 10th, 2073, and it's my 75th birthday! We've planned a special itinerary for me and my family to celebrate a well-lived, resilient, and blessed life. I'm so thankful to have such strong support systems; from friends, family, church-family, former co-workers, and clients. They have all motivated me and kept my faith so strong over these long years of living and developing through the contempt of the world.
Some of my former clients and co-workers are hosting an event of memoir tonight in honor of some of the accomplishments, service, and advocacy I've employed throughout my 40 years of being a Family Counselor. Everyone who knows me knows that I love to eat and enjoy the presence of genuine people, so today my two boys and husband prepared breakfast in bed for me. We just sat reminiscing, laughing and musing over life. This evening I will be attending a banquet in the Chapel of my family church where everyone will meet before tonight's memoir service.
I cannot begin to explain the delight I feel in my heart as everyone sends me their well wishes and appreciation for my courtesy, indulgence, kindness and service. As a family counselor, you could imagine, I am a very spiritual, family-oriented, strong-willed individual and I've fought for the unity of people, building networks and strong bonds, and maintaining humanity as a priority for peace. The Chapel is a significant place for my banquet to be held because I am a very active church member and believer of Christ. Not to mention my middle name is literally spelled Chapel.
The people I have in my life are dear to my heart and I am very humbled at their grace and efforts to celebrate my life in ways that reflect who I am and the things that I love. The service begins with scriptures and speeches by my loved ones. I hear the wonderful words spoken about me, my life and my passion, and I just think to myself... "Oh how beautiful these words of life are. They will carry my heart into redemption from the worldly flesh."
This spiritual journey begun before I even knew it. I started discovering the writer in myself around 2019. But, God had already been working before I even came to understand what He was doing in me. Every day it becomes clearer. I pay attention. More importantly, I ask questions.... without hesitance. What good is it for all of this knowledge & wonderful world of opportunities to go unknown. Seek all things God created for you, but remember to do so with a pure & clean heart. 💖
If there's things that exist in this world you don't perceive to align with the heart of God, seek change. God will make right of what is wrong in our lives, only when we choose His guidance and deny ourselves of the wrong will to follow. God created us to be like him. We know good and bad. We know right from wrong. What we choose to follow is freely ours, and only ours, to decide. The reaction from God should not be a surprise following your chosen actions.
Reflect on your decisions. Give them to God. Pursue what is best in life. Look at your reflection and smile knowing what lives inside of you. That should be enough to make everyday feel quite lovely & special.
Psalm 107:43 — "Let the one who is wise heed these things and ponder the loving deeds of the LORD." [NIV] ✍🏾
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