A Facade

chapter 1

Hinata just finished an hour long training session with his teammates. It's now 7:50 am, ten minutes before class and they all need to get changed. "GAHHHH IM GONNA BE LATE AGAIN" Hinata whines. "tch, maybe if you stop complaining and get ready, you'll be on time" Tsukishima adds while adjusting his glasses. Nishinoya whacked the back of his head with his sweaty shirt and growled at him,"Shut up for eyes, tough talk for someone who wears walmart headphones with crunchy quality", "he probably listens to 6ix9ine" Tanaka added while the others in the changing rooms laughed. Hinata finished changing and headed back to class, the 2nd most hated place of his, first was home.

"Hinata you're late", The female teacher barked at him. "Sorry miss I had training," He bowed and took his seat at the back corner of the class beside the window. He looked outside, watching the pink leaves fall off the cherry blossom tree, his teacher didn't notice as he is well hidden behind the taller male in front of him. The ginger started to think about life as a whole. Why am I here, who am I living for, he thought to himself. He would often get toxic thoughts invading his mind, especially during class, which gave him time to dwell on these thoughts. If I died, my teammates and family would be sad, that's not a healthy reason to keep living, I need a will to live. His thoughts were rudely interrupted by the bell. Hinata let out a big sigh as he slumped out of his desk and headed to his locker. He grabbed out his books and walked into his next class, one with his 'friends'.

Hinata walked in and slammed the books on his table getting attention from his classmates, luckily his teacher wasn't here yet. "Aw Shoyo you look so tired of school" Nagisa, his friend said to him. "Nah just tired in general, mentally and physically i guess" Shoyo responded, gaining a laugh from his other 2 friends. "There's no way Hinata is mentally tired, he is too bright for that" his other friend Sunaki added. Hinata sighed and let out a forced laugh. Of course my feelings aren't valid. A person that's as bright as me can never be sad, he said to himself as he fixed his posture in his chair. His other friend Nakawa was on his phone the whole time, just nodding and humming in response. "Soooo, Sunaki and Nakawa, we should all go to the cinema today," Nagisa said. Keep in mind the four of them are right beside each other. "Yeah totally, lets go to mine first, my dad can pay for us", Nakawa added, receiving cheers from the other two. Why didn't they invite me, they're making plans in front of me:/, am I really that much of a burden?" Hinata thought to himself. His so called friends did this all the time, sometimes they would just go out together and take pictures for snapchat, and if the ginger asked why he wasn't invited, they would simply say "I didn't think you would wanna come". What a lame excuse, if you don't want someone there, just say so with chest, don't be a coward.

Time skip to Practice

Hinata wasn't at his best today, after his friends being shitty and sly to him, again, and all his teachers disappointed in him, he felt terrible. "Everyone hates me" He said to himself as he walked into the gym. Everyone noticed his bad posture and frowned face and were suprised to see the shrimp sad. "Why's the shorty sad?" Tsukki questioned. "Hey Hinata, are you alright?" Yamaguchi asked. "Could be better" Hinata responded. "No way!, Hinata you're never sad just cheer up, it was probably minor anyways" Sugawara said, while the rest of the team agreed with him. "Yeah I guess" Hinata mumbled. His feelings, disregarded, again. Nobody cares about you Hinata, Not your schoolmates, or your teammates. The voices were back. These voices were actually Hinata's bad thoughts towards himself, it wasn't like he was schizophrenic. He was just giving himself what he thought was a reality check. "I'm gonna go to the bathroom real quick" Hinata said with a large smile on his face. He was dismissed by Daichi and quickly ran into one of the stalls. He began to tear up thinking about how nobody really cared for him, nobody ever listened. The small cries quickly turned in to quiet sobs, tears gushing down his face, "If I just disappeared maybe..., why won't they hear me out, how come i'm not allowed to have emotions, i'm suffocating, he thought. "Hinata, is that you?" A voice called to him. Hinata quickly wiped his tears and flushed the toilet. He opened the door to the stall and slowly walked out.

"K-Kageyama?