A Facade

chapter 2

Kageyama's POV:

Shrimp was taking a while in the toilet so i was told to go check on him. I walked in and at the last stall I could hear sniffles, was he... crying? "Hinata, you there?" I asked stupidly, of course he was there. "K-kageyama" he whispered. He left the stall and looked at me with a fake smile on his face. "Hinata, are you okay, I heard you crying, do yo-" I was cut off by hinata waving his hands. "I wasn't crying?" He said confused. But he was, I heard him, why is he lying. "Hinata i hea-" "I wasn't crying don't be dumb," He replied, before he left he patted my shoulder, signaling me to follow him back into the gym. Why is he lying?, Ugh what's my business with it anyways, I shouldn't interfere.

Back to nobody's POV:

Hinata sighed as he left the bathroom. "I'll just act like nothing happened, he better not bring it up again" he said to himself as he walked towards his teammates. "You were in there for quite a while were you taking a shit or something?" Tanaka laughed. "Haha a hefty one too" Hinata joked, flexing his muscles. "Alright, alright back to practice" Coach Ukai yelled a bit. As they did their drills, Kageyama would take glances at Hinata now and again, he was genuinely worried for the other, not that he would show it and again, he didn't wanna intervene. For Hinata, practice was the same, The semi-fake laughs and smiles, when he was just wanted to be alone in the comfort of his bed and listen to some music.

Practice was finally over and they all dismissed themselves. Hinata was dreading to go back home, his father was a real pain. He was toxic, manipulative, abusive and what not. His dad is the only one at home everyday he comes back from school, his sister natsu does afterschool until later and his mom has work. So it was just him and his dad. Hinata quietly entered the house and put his things upstairs. His dad strangly enough hasn't bothered him yet so thats good.(TW slight physical abuse, and mental abuse) "Shoyo... SHOYO" His dad screamed from his room. "Yes dad?" Shoyo replied standing up heading towards his dad's room. "Why did it take you so long to answer, you fool, show some respect or get out of the house" His dad yelled. Shoyo could never tell if his dad was serious or not but he could admit, he was hurt. "Sorry dad, I was going to but then you called me again" Shoyo replied. "Don't dare talk back to me" Hinata's dad yelled as he smacked his face. "You are such a disrespectful person, you are NOT my son. i don't know what your mother sees in you, you're filthy, and rude, now get out before i make you" He continued yelling even when hinata left his room. Hinata gently closed his room door so it wouldn't be loud enough to be considered 'slamming'. 

He curled up to a ball on the floor of his room and began to cry, his cries were loud and he sought comfort, but nobody cares for him, they would tell him his feelings are invalid like always. So he cried alone. 'What if my dad hears me and kicks me out, what if he hits me again, what if my teammates laugh at me, i'm pathetic, i'm looking for attention, man up, men don't cry, men can't cry, I can't cry' he thought to himself as he was visibly shaking. He began to breathe heavier and heavier, (panic attack coming up) as if his heart was about to jump out of his chest, his grip tightened into a fist and he started to cry uncontrollably, his breathing was irregular and everywhere was blurry. 

Soon enough all sounds were cut off, he could just hear his heart beat, he was no longer crying, he was drowning, his fast heart beat scared him, he tried to stand up but his knees began to buckle, so he slid himself to his bathroom and held onto the sink for support. He splashed water on his face and looked at himself in the mirror. He looked horrible, pathetic, useless, ugly, disgusting. He looked like life had been drained out of him, like a corpse. He dried his face with the towel beside him and went back to his bed. He laid down and looked at the circular patterns on his ceiling trying to distract himself from everything, his moment of peace was interrupted my his mom and Natsu entering the house. 

"We're home" The younger exclaimed, Hinata jumped up from his bed and ran down to his mom and gave her the biggest hug, oh how much he needed a hug from his mom. He sunk into her arms and she patted his head. "I see you missed me Shoyo" she said while giggling a bit. "I did... dad was shouting again". "Shoyo... he didn't hit you did he?" His mom questioned. Shoyo thought about his answer, if he was to say yes, his dad would get angry or they would get a divorce, Natsu wouldn't have a dad and it would be his fault, "No, he didn't" Shoyo whispered still clinging onto his mom. She smiled, trying to comfort him and kissed the top of his head"okay, i'm gonna go put Natsu to bed now, Goodnight my love" His mother said while walking away.  "Goodnight mom" He said.

 As she turned around, a single tear fell from Hinata's eye. "Why is she acting like nothing happened". Hinata was not only sad now, he was angry, why would his mom disregard the fact that her husband was yelling and insulting her only son. Does she not love me either? the ginger thought to himself. He walked into his room and plugged in his earphones to his phone. He decided to play a slowed and reverb song to calm him down. While the song was playing he reflected on how shitty his life was. Now i have nobody to live for since nobody cares about me, why am i still alive. It was the toxic thoughts again. He quicky pushed those thoughts to the back of his head and closed his eyes, with i love you by Billie Eilish playing in the background. He then drifted into a sound sleep.