Are we back together || Book 1

Not even magnets could separate us

ahhhhhh i'm really impatient and so i am going to post this now. I can't believe i finished this and i hope you all like the ending. I know it's really short to so sorry about that. If you would like me to make a part two to this though please say because i will 100% be up for it if you want. REGULAR DISCLAIMER(lol that is getting so old).

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Sam's POV

I was about to tell Freddie my deepest darkest secret but for some reason I didn't feel as scared as I thought I was I mean I thought I would be absolutely petrified but for some reason I am not.

"Where do I begin I guess. Well I better go back to the beginning when Melanie left for boarding school and my dad had left I was all alone. You know my mom had those boyfriends right".

Freddie nodded and let me continue obviously not wanting to interrupt me

"Well they were terrible because she was so depressed I honestly don't think she could see properly her vision was too clouded by my father and Melanie so she always had these terrible boyfriends as I just said. Well and they used to come over and she would always lock me in my tiny closet saying how she wished I had never existed and to keep out the way, well I guess being trapped in a dark closet did the trick"

I could feel tears falling down my cheeks at the terrible memories that were resurfacing in my mind. I paused for a minuet letting the feeling of Freddie rubbing my back calm me down.

"Well it made me claustrophobic and tight spaces frighten me a lot now which is why I got anxious when we were in the car going to the beach being in such a small proximity is very uncomfortable for me. Anyway back to what I was saying before my mom would always throw her empty wine and beer bottles at me telling me how much space I took up and 'why couldn't I be more like Melanie' well i'm not my twin sister so yea. I do really truly believe though that somewhere deep down inside of her she was just taking everything out on me I had always had such a strong bond with my father and same with Melanie and mom but I think she was just jealous of our bond".

I had to pause for a second to prepare myself for the response I could possibly get from saying this.

"Well firstly don't hate on me for what i'm about to say and promise that we will still stay friends no matter what".

he gave me a reassuring nod.

"Well once my dad left I felt so weak and powerless but I had to stay strong for everyone and there was no possible way that I was going to show everyone how I truly felt so I built up my barrier which I never retreated from but I guess.....I met you. You well I guess its hard to describe but I almost felt like me again. When I was around you I felt a sense of comfort and felt safe and protected and well I guess this freaked me out a little because I had built up these barriers for so long. These barriers were what I had known for so long I had forgotten what this weird feeling of warmth in my chest felt like. What it was. I guess this freaked me out a little, well a lot and I turned to violence and i'm sorry for it all Freddie I hate myself for how mean I was to you. I guess I also started to eat a lot more because food made me feel good. Then I learnt that you had never kissed anyone and well you know I kind of told the world but then we kissed and I liked it I liked it a lot. This feeling in my chest grew and it wouldn't go away I lay awake at night Freddie thinking about that kiss and how I felt and it took me way too long to realise what it was. It was love Freddie, I loved you Freddie, I love you. You were like a magnet drawing me to you I felt this spark when I kissed you again at school. The same spark I felt that night in the fire escape and I did my usual run away from my problems and I ended up in a mental hospital. To be honest the main reason was confusion, I was confused to what I was feeling I was supposed to have this wall that no one could break, no one was supposed to see my soft side but you did you somehow managed to tap into me and completely shatter what I had built. Then we became boyfriend and girlfriend. That was a dream come true for me. The thought that I could kiss you when I wanted and be close to you without anyone being suspicious because you were my boyfriend. Then we broke up. That shattered me to be honest and even though we agreed this was mutual I couldn't help but miss you so, so, so much".

I then took a deep breath looking back up at him "sam I-i'm-", "let me finish i'm not done", I replied continuing to become more vulnerable by the second as I told Freddie things I wouldn't have dreamed of a month ago.

"Well when we dated and I used to come over to you at random hours of the night well that was because of my mother. Obviously I had outgrown my closet which in a way I was thankful for to some extent as now I didn't have to be in such a tight space for so long. My mother got around this though as she wanted me out the way when she had her boyfriends round so she started verbally abusing me calling me an idiot, telling me again how much of a waste of space I was, telling me she wished I didn't exist and so I seeked retreat and that was coming to you. I'm sorry for never telling you I honestly don't know how you put up with me being so secretive but I just needed comfort and for someone to hold me and tell e everything was going to be okay and that was you. You just made me feel safe and secure and I knew I could sleep without the constant worry of being hit by empty glass bottles. You left though and well I couldn't handle these emotions so i did my classic move of running away and i started my new life here and well the rest is history and then you turned up..."

I had honestly put my heart and sole onto that and i just hoped he felt the same otherwise i was honestly screwed.

Freddie's POV

I could tell she had put every last bit of energy into saying that and it was only fair to confess. Apart from that i had no idea about how hard it had been for her back then no wonder she had come to almost every night when we dated crying. I never knew how much heart ache she had experienced and i knew that i would forever be there from then on. She had experienced too much hurt for her heart to handle anymore.

We stared at each other for a second "does this confirm the answer you wanted", i whispered leaning and capturing her lips. I felt her arms curl around my neck and she moved closer deepening our kiss. I answered wrapping my arms around her waist and back supporting her body as we kissed. I had missed this feeling so much and never wanted this to end and i could feel she did to. I knew there was more to talk about with her but in this moment nothing else matter except or lips being fused together. We stayed in this position for ages fighting with each other for dominance as i ran my tongue along the bottom of her lip asking for access which i was granted eagerly by her as we continued until i felt our shortage of oxygen and left her lips running down her jaw line where i planted soft kisses on her neck trying to hold onto this moment forever as i heard Sam let out small moans. We finally broke apart not letting go of each other but staring into each others deep eyes "i love you to", i replied pecking her lips.

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She didn't reply for a couple minuets but had a huge smile on her face and i knew exactly what she meant. Now for the daunting bit, asking her about her mini panic attacks. I mean i could sort of figure it out now but i knew she needed someone to talk to. I took a huge gulp of air shifting her in my arms to were she was sitting on my lap leaned against me, her arms still around my neck as i stroked her hair preparing her for the question "Sam would you like to explain what happened to you earlier today", i said pecking her lips again for reassurance.

"well it is all to do with what happened to me when i was younger and sometimes its like i hear my mom's voice in my head and i just feel like i'm in that closet all over again. Normally it takes a while for me to find my way back to reality but for some reason you managed to bring me back".

I almost felt a little pride when Sam told me that. To know that i meant so much to her and that she trusted me so deeply gave me this infectious smile, the same smile that was plastered on Sam's face.

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We stayed cuddled on the rock for hours holding each other so close to one another. Gathering each others warmth as we looked out to sea the now dark turquoise ocean swaying calmly in the warm breeze. The midnight sky filed with twinkling stars just like Sam's ocean blue eyes. Our connection with each other had never felt so strong to me and i never wanted to let go of her. I was never going to let go if her she was too precious to me. In that moment i knew that nothing i repeat nothing could ever separate us again. We were meant to be. It was like fate had pulled us back together. It was fate that i was meant to Save Sam. It was fate that we would end up in the Sam bed every morning cuddling together. It was fate that i was meant to comfort her at the beach. It was fate that we were meant to hold hands in the mall. The universe just wanted us to be together. We were never meant to be apart. We were meant to be together. We are meant to be together. That's just how are story is meant to go.

THE END.

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