BAD BOY (SM x TS)

PART FIFTY SIX

Shawn's POV

"What do you mean by that ?"
"It means what I said Shawn" She said standing up and walk away
"No, what do you mean by those words ?! We both know it doesn't mean what it says" I said stepping in front of her

"You're really breaking up with me only because I talk with Lisa ?!" I said as she looks at me with raised eyebrows
"So that girl is Lisa ? You're talking to your ex and you're hiding this from me ?!" She said and I roll my eyes

"It's not a big deal, there's nothing wrong with that" I said as she scoffed
"Do you even hear yourself talk ?! ItS nOt a BiG dEaL. You're talking with your first love behind my back and you find it normal ?!! How can I trust you after this !! If you learn that a boy is looking at me you're beating him up !! You beat the shit out of Noah only because some idiot told you he liked me !! And you want me to accept the fact that you're talking with your ex ? Are you fucking serious ?!" She said getting angry
"So I'm sorry to disappoint you Señor Shawn Mendes but NO, no I can't accept that !!" She shouted with her face all red of anger

"I do my best everytime when things aren't okay between us, I always come at you when you feel bad or when you're mad to see if we can fix things and all I have back from you is painful words everytime, but I still keep trying but I'm sick of it, it's like I'm waisting my time talking to a wall, and I'm fed up with talking to a wall instead of someone who should understand me" she said wiping her cheeks as I stay silent not knowing what to say
"So I'm sorry, I'm sorry to be fed up Shawn" She said with a sad shrug wiping her cheeks

"I think it would be good for us if we stay away from each other for a little while" She said making me look at her
"No" I said sternly shaking my head
"You can't ask me that, you know I can't live without you" I said and she nodded ironically

"Say the one who pushed me off of his lap and ignored me for 10 minutes when his ex come to him" She said with a shrug and I run my hand through my hair
"I don't know why I did that, it was prêt dumb from me and I'm sorry for that, I'm not ashamed of you or whatever, I just didn't realize I did it and I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, I didn't mean that"

"But you can't ask me to ignore you when we live in the same house and see each other everytime. You know that I love you more than anything, that I want you to be the mother of my children, I want to have an house with you later. You know I will love you even after my last breath, but please don't leave me, I'm begging you to not leave me. I know I don't deserve you and that I'm the biggest bastard in the world and you deserve someone better, but I can't imagine what I would be without you" I said feeling tears in my eyes

"All I'm asking is for time Shawn" She said wiping her cheeks and I nodded looking down
"I'll give you all the time you need then babe" I said no playing with the sand before I wrap my arms tightly around her but she didn't hug me back

"I love you a lot Martina Stoessel, i really hope you know that" I mumbled in her hair before kiss the side of her head
"Guys" Aaliyah said as Martina break the hug
"We're leaving, it's getting late" She said and Martina nodded before walk away

"You're okay big bro ?" She said looking at me as I shake my head
"I think I lost her Liyah"