It's not that serious

Who i am

I've been trying so hard, for as long as I can remember, to just not be who I am.
I wanted to be somebody else.
Somebody better.

Because all I've ever known my whole life is that I was wrong.
They said I needed to try harder, to do better.
To change. 

And I spent nine years of my life in a chemical prison trying to achieve what came naturally to so many others.

And I thought why me? Why does it have to be so difficult? Will I ever be good enough?

I don't exactly know where I'm going with this... maybe I was hoping for some kind of resolution of self-acceptance, maybe you were too. I'm sorry to disappoint, but maybe I'll get there one day.

And maybe you'll get to see it.