It Was Always You Falling For Me [Ryden] (DISCONTINUED)

Chapter Four

Dallon. Dallon. Dallon.

That name was ringing through my head like crazy all through French. Why did it bother me so much the way he looked at Brendon?

God, Ryan, your such a mess. Get your self together! I took a deep breath and continued to stare out the window; trying to find peace, as Buddah would say.

My eyes landed on a nest of birds in a tree and a few eggs laid in the nest with the couple of birds. How I wished for a family like that. A mother that didn't work her ass off to support her son that only wanted to spend time with her ocasionally. Don't get me wrong, I'm greatful for the things I have I just wish I could atleast have a few minutes a day to talk to my mom. And well, I also wished my father was still alive, and I wish that that accident never happened- wow, look at me, I'm jealous of birds.

Wow, Ryan, your a cool dude.

I waited for the bell to ring as I do desperately wanted to leave and tare his eyes away from the boy he had taking a disliking to. Dallon.

He stared at me with a strange twisted like smile on his face. I don't know what was wrong with him, but, it was begging to get really goddamn creepy. The way he looked at me was totally different from the way he looked at Brendon. He looked at Brendon with adoration and a smile that looked like he was completely unaware was even there. Then, he looked at me with dark eyes that were scarily close to saying 'I want to murder you' and if thats not scary then I don't know what is.

The bell rung and I let out a huge sigh in relief. Thank god. I picked up all my stuff and scrambled to my locker. I put all my stuff in and began walking through the halls and toward the exit.

Once I was outside something caught my eye, Brendon and Dallon talking.

This can't be good. Well, not for me anyways.

I stopped walking and listened intently.

"-Well, actually, I can't. "

"Why not Brenny?"

"Look, no, I like someone anyway." I felt my heart sink at those words. Why did I feel like this? It's not as if I had a crush on him.

Far from that infact.

"Aw, c'mon, just one date then I'll leave you alone."

"Fine." Then the conversation ended and they parted, walking in two different directions as Brendon got in his car.

I furrowed my eyebrows and walked off.

Dallon and Brendon on a date. Why does that bother me so much? I really don't understand myself sometimes.

I sighed and continued walking home.

Once I made it home I saw my mom in the kitchen making some sort of food.

"Mom? Why are you home?" I asked slightly confused about why she wouldn't be at the hospital right now working her ass off.

"Someone tookmy shift today and for the rest of the week for some extra pay." She shrugged.

"So you'll be home?" I asked.

"Well, not exactly, I'm taking another nurses shift, but hers last until about one in the morning so my shifts are a little later than usual this week." She sighed.

"Oh." I said and tossed my bag on the floor.

"Ryan, honey, uh, there's someone I want you to meet tonight." She smiled.

"Who?" I asked.

"C'mere Ryan." She saidand sat down at the table.

I followed suite and took a seat.

"Well, Ryan I understand you might still be upset about your fathers passing but eveyone must move on." She explained.

"Right..." I said wearily.

"And, well I have moved on. I met someone. His name is Jack and we've been on a few dates here and there. Ryan, I really like him, and I understand you might be upset about all this but I would love for you to meet him. He's a great guy." She smiled.

"Are you kidding? Why would I be sad about this? It just shows your moving on." I smiled.

"And I would love to meet him." I continued.

"Aw, Ryan sweetheart, thank you so much." She hugged me tightly and continued cooking.

"Well, he should be round in hour or so. And, darling, could you please set the table?" She smiled brightly before turning back to her cooking once again.

"Of course." I nodded and began to set the table.

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I sat in my room waiting until this Jack guy would arrive.

I may have acted completely care free, and I mean don't get me wrong, I love that my mom is moving on but what if he doesn't treat her like the princess she is? My mom is the most important woman in my life, and I will not stand back and watch any man treat her less than perfect.

I took off my dirty clothes and got in the shower quickly before getting dressed in my "nice" clothes.

I had my best black skinny jeans on and my skull shirt. These are the things I wear when I want to impress people.

Brendon POV

I sat in my car a little while longer before actually getting out and going into my house.

I had a family that didn't like fun or didn't feel the need to enjoy things. My family was all work, work, work.

My mom was a lawyer, always on the go, never at home.

My dad was a piolot, always on the go, never at home.

My sister was a nurse, always on the go, never at home.

I stepped into the large house and closed the door behind me.

"I'm home!" I shouted into the large empty house. I had always done it for the simple reason that it made me feel like I wasn't the only one in this damn place. Constantly being alone here is actually driving me to the verge of insanity.

I had begged my parents for a cat or dog for years just to keep me company and keep me sane but they always came back to the same damn thing "Life isn't about fun and enjoyment, when you grow up you do what you have to do to survive."

Why couldn't my parents just enjoy life for once? Why couldn't they find the beauty in the small things?

I guess there's one thing you can learn from what I just said, I, Brendon Urie, am alone in this world.

A/N:

Hey guys, so have a bonus chapter. Sorry this chapter was short and also you guys got to see a bit of Brendons background and life. Hope you enjoyed this chapter.

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Stay weird.

Till next time Killjoys.