Meant To Be, Please Don't Go

Chapter 4

Camila's POV
My wish was her command. I can't believe my first kiss has been given to me by Lauren , the girl every guy/girl out there would die for. The girl that I realized just a few minutes ago that I have fallen for. My mind completely went blank. With every tongue swirl, every lip bite and the heaviness of our breathing. Before this right here moment, I always worried about how my first kiss would play out but kissing Lauren came so natural; as if our lips were meant to sync together as one. I felt the intensity in her kisses, she felt the same I just knew it. After ending that perfect kiss with small tender ones, Lauren blew me away.
"I love you, not the way I love Luis. I love you the way you love me" the green eyed beauty laying on top of me whispered.
"I want you so bad Lauren. I love you, us" I replied and leaned in for another kiss. Right when Lauren began intensifying the kiss, there was a hard knock on my door. Who the hell could it be? I thought. I didn't want to move nor allow anyone else in but before I even realized it Lauren opened the door. Dinah.
"There you are! Why haven't you've been answering your phone!? Your damn boyfriend Luis just woke me up. He's here to surprise you but you're nowhere to be found. Girl..you know what. Bye." Dinah marched back to her room, one thing she hated was being woken up. Lauren slowly made her way back to me but just sat on the edge of my bed. The moment we shared a few seconds ago was so magical that I totally forgot about the odd man out - Luis. Just hours ago, I labeled myself as that but nope she loves me not him.
"I can't leave him" she whispered while avoiding eye contact.
"Why.. Are you seriously even thinking for a split second you should remain in a relationship that your heart does not desire to be a part of?" I retaliated. "Camila, that kiss sealed the deal. I want you as bad as you want me but he's a good kid, the fandom knows about him, my parents, his parents.. How am I going to explain this sudden change? She struggled trying to justify her reason why but I knew it was straight bullshit.
"You're afraid. Afraid of the consequences of us being together." I quickly sat up and headed to the door.
"Get out Lauren and don't come back into my room" I pointed to the hallway while there was a pain in my chest. Lauren was always the brave one, the one who could care less what anyone thought. Was this not worthy enough for her to fight for? "Camz I love you, just give me time to figure out everything. I need to figure out what I'm going to tell him" she tried holding my hand but I quickly moved away. "There's nothing to figure out Lauren. You're a strong believer that the truth must always be spoken. Tell him what you just told me; you don't love him, you love me. You want me, not him!" my voice cracked after those last words. It's as if I gained Lauren and lost her all within the past hour.

Lauren's POV
I was not going to leave like this. Ugh why was Luis even here? How did he get here? Camila doesn't understand it's not so easy. I know Luis genuinely likes me and me leaving him will destroy him. She was right, I was a tad bit afraid. This was new to me.. I've never felt this for anyone else. I was at a crossroads, I was either going to hurt Camila and lose her or hurt Luis by letting him go.
"Camz I can't ..not right now. " I said while fidgeting with my fingers.
"Then don't bother doing it ever. Get out Lauren! Get out!" tears were running down her cheeks. Why was she being so unreasonable, so impatient? I didn't say I wasn't going to tell him, just not right now. I headed for the hallway but before I opened my mouth to tell her I love her she interrupted,
"By the way, my name is Camila not Camz" she slammed the door in my face. Did I just lose my Camz? I just realized that Camren was not just some fan fantasy but something so pure and indescribable between my band mate and I. That door slam felt like a slap to the face and I slowly headed to my room. I just wanted to sleep, tomorrow is a new day and maybe Camila needed tonight to cool down. Instead of going to the suite Luis was staying in I went straight to bed.

Camila's POV
7:15AM. I barely slept last night. I jumped in the shower and avoided looking in the mirror because of my puffy eyes.
"Knock knock I hope you're awake Mila" Dinah shouted. She stopped and looked at my face with concern.
"Mila what's wrong? Your eyes look like two lemons!" I couldn't help but giggle. That was Dinah Jane for you. She always knew how to make me laugh even at my lowest points.
"She loves me but she's staying with him. She doesn't love me enough to leave him." I teared and instantly felt my best friend's arms around me. After a few sobs, the silence was broken.
"Mila do not do this. Don't push her away and towards Luis. She loves you right? Well at least try to see if she will eventually tell him or what she's thinking. This is all new to you guys." Dinah said. "No. I'm going to leave her alone and forget about these stupid feelings and my first.. Kiss" I said quickly but smirked because I knew Dinah would realize the last three words.
"REWIND RIGHT NOW KARLA! Your first kiss? Oh my Jesus tell me everythingggg!" The rest of the morning we just talked about how much I loved my first kiss with Lauren and the tour. We had a show tonight and we needed to start preparing for our meet and greet. I hadn't heard from Lauren or seen her but I assumed she was with her boyfriend. The rest of the girls and I started warming up for the mini performance we usually do for our harmonizers during the first part of the meet and greet. I didn't realize when but Lauren joined us.. So did Luis. I didn't even bother to acknowledge them, at this point I didn't care if anyone else noticed I was angry at her. I started applying a small amount of lipstick and saw Lauren approaching me.
"Camz.. I'm sorry I mean Camila can we talk?" she whispered.