Meant To Be, Please Don't Go

Chapter 7

Camila's POV:
She began walking away when I found myself grabbing her wrist, turning her around, crashing our lips together while pushing her towards the wall. It didn't take long for her to reciprocate the kiss.
"Hey gu.." Dinah began speaking but once she laid eyes on us she slowly turned right back around and left us alone. My arms found their way to her neck while her arms wrapped themselves around my waist. As soon as the kiss began intensifying, she pulled me back.
"Why would you kiss me?" She said, her speech barely audible.
"Because I'm scared that once the next tour begins I won't get the chance to.. Lauren don't interrupt me for just a few seconds" I begged while holding on to her as a reassurance that she will remain in front of me.
"I'm sorry for agreeing to see Austin that night. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I let my jealousy get the best of me and didn't want you to be close to Luis or be his girlfriend for one second longer. I'm sorry for not providing you with the time you asked for. I'm sorry for not comforting you when you were crying although that's all my body ached for. I'm sorry for always being so damn weak, the weak Camila that I am. I'm sorry for always leaving you no choice but to be the strong one. I'm sorry that you love someone like me. I'm sorry that even though I know that I love you, at this very moment, I'm not ready to let the world know." I couldn't continue since the sadness that I now let out was suffocating me and making me drown in my own tears.

Lauren's POV:
"No Camz, don't say that" I pleaded while wiping tears off her cheeks.
"I'm sorry.."
"NO LAUREN! We can't be! Why hold on, huh?! To just hurt each other more? Maybe the girls will accept us, yes but what about management? Simon? Our parents? The damn WORLD?! I wish I could just be selfish and not worry about what would happen to the girls' dreams and just screw everything and and just be with YOU! But we can't!" Camila cried while gasping for air.
"Then what are you telling me Camila? To just rip you out of my heart?! I CANT! I've tried Camila. Those 7 days without you were torture. All I thought about was YOU. If you enjoyed your date. If you missed me. If he kissed you. If you were slowly forgetting about how it felt to kiss me. I can't. I love you." I let out while holding on to her for dear life.
We remained holding each other for a good 10 minutes.
"No. No because I know it isn't possible. What I am telling you is.. We're going to have to live. Live loving each other but not being able to have each other. Love each other from a distance. Live to just live our careers, our dreams, as just group mates. As much as it'll hurt. Just live." She sobbed uncontrollably while caressing my face.
"I can't.." I cried out. "You will Lauren. You'll see." She smiled sadly and pecked my lips one last time.
"I love you Lauren. This dumb, awkward, clumsy fool loves you. But only you and I will know that." She whispered while her right hand held on to the back of my neck, our foreheads were pressed against one another and her left hand was tracing a heart across my chest.
"And I'll never stop Cabello. Never".

Camila's POV
"Are you serious?! Ugh he's so corny! Why him? Why not Yonce?" Mani yelled.
Dinah and Ally bursted out laughing while I avoided looking in Lauren's direction because I knew the moment my eyes made contact with those green gorgeous mini galaxies of hers I'll just launch myself into her embrace.
"How are you two going to deal with this? Especially you Lauren." Mani asked.
"What do you mean?" I nervously asked since this whole time I believed the girls had no clue about Lauren and I or that they were just acting as if they didn't witness the fiasco that occurred that night.
"Oh come on, we all know you two are like crazy about each other. Do you think im stupid?" Mani giggled and looked at both Lauren and I.
"There's .. There's no us. Me and Lauren have decided that.."
"Cabello here decided that what is best for us is for there to be no us. So i would highly appreciate it if we didnt touch this subject anymore because it just doesnt exist" Lauren interjected while holding back tears.
"You guys cant give up just because.." "Well obviously Cabello can. She already did and im not fighting for this anymore. Im tired." Lauren once again interjected while Dinah was trying to patch things up. Lauren wiped away her tears and sobbed. "Lolo.. Dont cry" I pleaded.
"It's Lauren to you Cabello. Lauren." She said while making her way to the back lounge of the bus.
"Lauren I thought we agreed to this.. I thought you understood where I was coming from" I said while walking after her. "Camila I'm tired of this. This bullshit you're trying to run on me. You're going to give Mahone a chance the moment he's in your face pleading for one. You're going to leave me behind. Just please let me go." she pleaded with uncontrollable sobs escaping her mouth.
"I love you Lauren. I love you with all of me. Since the moment I saw you after your Xfactor audition. Since that moment I've loved you. What am I supposed to do?!" I tried turning her my way but she was as stiff as a rock.
"You've done it. You've made your decision. Now. Stick. To. It. Just.. Just know I'm not going to just stand by, waiting for you, while you have all you've ever wanted." she turned with tears in her eyes but yet her facial expression was full of tiredness, regret.
"You're all I ever wanted Lauren and I won't be able to have you" tears began running down my face uncontrollably. The more I tried to retain them, the more my eyes released them.

Lauren's POV
Next thing I know I launched at her with all the passion, love, hate, regret, hurt and all other emotions. I crashed our lips. Fast pacing kissing yet gentle. I yanked her hair back while making my way to her neck, biting on it while she let out a moan and dug her nails deep into my flesh.
"Lauren.. Mak.. Make me yours. I want to be. All. Yours." she whispered full of desperation.
I begun removing her bra and massaging her left breast while never separating our lips. Then, the truth clouded my sexual thoughts of making Camila mine for the first time.
"Just. Just take that as a goodbye or farewell." I said in between each gasp of air.

Next Day
Austin Mahone. The tour. Fucking doofus. I can't believe life is making me go through this but there's nothing I can do about it but suck it up. I heard there's other great opening acts but my mind is somewhere else. Well, on someone else. Ever since our intense kissing scene all I do is wake up from dreams of me just .. Doing what I was planning to do.
"You're so cute Camilla. I can't wait till you accept my offer on taking you out to watch a movie" I hear as I make my way to our dressing room. The voice was recognizable, Mr. Mahone.
"Haha, I'll think about it Austin. You're not so bad yourself" Camila flirted back.
My blood begun to boil just picturing her flashing him what that beautiful smile of hers.
"Oh hey Lauren!" He waved in my direction.
"Hi." I plainly let out while throwing myself on the couch.
"Lauren Dinah was looking for you just a few minutes ago" Camila said while making her way to me but then this fuckboy decided to grab her by her waist and swing with her side to side.
"If you want alone time with.. That! I mean, my apologies. Him! You could just say so Cabello." I stormed out but heard footsteps quickly running after me. "Lauren what the fuck is wro" Camila whispered but I just grabbed her by her wrist and locked us in the nearest supply closet.
"Cabello I cant control myself when I see you with him and this is the first time. The first day of tour. Can you stop being such a whore?!" I whispered harshly.
CLAP!
I felt this sudden burning sensation on my left cheek.
"Mind your fucking business Lauren. I'm not your worry any longer" she said while pressing against my chest with both of her palms and walking out.
After a few minutes of spazzing out by myself in the closet I walked out and bumped into an unfamiliar face immediately.
"Ow! Sorry I wasn't looking." I said while trying to figure out who this was.
"Oh its cool. Wait you're Lauren right? Lauren from Fifth Harmony" the British voice asked.
"Yeah thats me. Why? Are you a fan?"
"No, I am actually Brad from the Vamps band. Im your new opening act mate." Brad chuckled while shaking my hand. "You're way prettier in person. Well your beautiful in magazines and online as well" he nervously pointed out.
"Haha thanks Brad. You're quite charming." "Well I have to go practice. I'll see you around." He eyed me up and down while biting his bottom lip.
"Uh sure.." I quickly turned back to the dressing room.
"Lolo what was that??? Were you flirting? Or was I just mistaking those glances you and little homeboy were sharing back there?" Dinah shouted while snapping at me.
"Maybe, maybe not Dinah" I winked and realized the other girls were listening in to this, including Camila.
"You guys would def make a great couple. I approve!" the short one of the group said while jumping out of her seat.
"Thanks. I will keep that in mind on me and Brad's wedding day" I jokingly mentioned.
I felt Camila's stare burning into my face. "He is pretty cute. And he's so sweet and charming. I felt butterflies when he called me beautiful. I've never felt those type of things." I continued on complimenting the British boy when all of a sudden
"Just shut up Lauren. You're just trying to make me jealous. It isn't working" the brown eyed Cuban who has my heart giggled while making her way past me.
I grabbed her by her arm,
"I'm not trying. Now I was the one who found themselves someone who sparks interest in me. You aren't the only one who is allowed to find others appealing and attractive Cabello" I said while our faces were inches apart.
"Even though you're trying to prove to the Ausmila fans and your family that Austin is so darn amazing I know he doesn't make you squirm with pleasure or your pussy drip of wetness by just a couple of intense kisses." I seductively said while staring at her lips. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to have Camila around me yet Austin at the same time and witness him desire her as much as I do. What I do know is that I meant what I said about Brad. There was something about the boy. And I was deff going to find out.