꧁𝙋𝙚𝙧𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣꧂ 𝙅𝙖𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙋𝙤𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧

~Three~ 𝙂𝙧𝙮𝙛𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙𝙤𝙧 𝘾𝙪𝙧𝙞𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙎𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚 𝙀𝙣𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙨

  TW   Eating disorder, PTSD

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Valencia's POV

It's eight am. I Didn't sleep. I showered though. I showered, I got ready for the day, I worked out, I showered again, and now I'm going to walk the grounds before class.

Now I know it might seem unnecessary to shower twice, work out, and go on a walk, all before the first class of the day. But, I am just trying to ensure that I don't fall asleep. I can't fall asleep. I am not going to give in to him again, even if it's only in my nightmares. I won't let it happen.

I quietly sneak out of the room as to not wake Lila. I really am not in the mood for questions or knowing looks right now. I just want to be alone and awake, I want to feel safe like nothing is wrong.

As I look up, (now in the hallway) I nearly pummel Ryker who happens to be charging straight towards my door. Thankfully, we both stop in time to prevent the unwanted collision.

"You look rather upset dork. What's up?" I ask walking past him and down the stairs to the common room.

"One, Your voice is obnoxiously peppy for 8:00 am. And two I have something to tell you, and you can't fight me on it."

"Oh, bloody hell. What happened? Also how in the world did you get up the girl's staircase? It shouldn't have let you up." I asked curiously.

"I have my ways, Val. Anyway, I found out that at the huge party tonight Evan is planning on coming up to your room while you're sleeping since the dorms will be accessible for the night. I think we both know the gist of what he will want. So I called in a favor from Lilly Evans the Gryffindor head girl. And she arranged it so that you could stay on the Gryffindor couch in the common room. And I know the last thing you want is to be surrounded by Gryffindors. But Evans promised to make sure that everyone left you alone and everyone stayed out of the common room after 11:00 pm. And I mean come on, they're Gryffindors, they arent going to hurt you."

"Seriously? Gryffindor? Of all the houses? Surely Ravenclaw or Hufflepuff would've worked just fine."

"No. You have friends in both those houses, whereas in Gryffindor everyone dislikes or hates you. It's the last place Evan would look for you."

"Fine. Thanks for making sure that Evan couldn't get to me. You're a lifesaver"

"Anytime. Besides, if you get any more hurt emotionally or physically Kier would be devastated and a mess. And I can't have that."

"He cares about me too much for his own good. I am too messed up for him to be as scared for me as he is, it's not like there's much hope for me."

"I think deep down he knows that but you're his sister and he loves you. It's not his fault," he replied slowly.

"Yea I know," I mutter.

"I'm going to go for a walk before my first class," I whispered before walking out of the common room.

The halls weren't vacant because of people with early morning classes but there weren't that many people because most of us were smarter than to pick classes that run that early.

As I started walking and thought my mind just kept circling back to thoughts about Rosier. I got so stressed and anxious that eventually, my relaxing morning walk to waste time turned into an energy-burning jog. It's my favorite kind of weather outside, the pre-rain kind of weather. It was just so peaceful and was definitely helping to calm me down.