speak now | regulus black

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AN: Hi I'm sorry updates have been kinda slow, I just really don't want this story to end bc I'm gonna miss Sofia and Regulus so much :( not to mention YOU GUYS (also bc I rewrote the entire ending). Sometimes posting a story online feels like I'm just screaming into the void so believe me when I say all your comments/votes are extremely appreciated, they always make my day !!! I love y'all🥺💖

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speak now – taylor swift

'don't say yes, run away now.'

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Sofia spent the next months in a sort of limbo. She thought of Regulus constantly. She hadn't seen him since her father's funeral since she hadn't returned to Hogwarts after that.

She stayed with Sirius during that time and she missed her family terribly but she felt like she had to stay in England for some time to be sure no one could trace her back to them.

Sirius went out on Order business a lot, and she worried, but he always returned. Sometimes he'd have a haunted look in his eyes and Sofia worried that he was doing too much. But he didn't seem to want to slow down.

Sofia knew that the Hogwarts graduation had happened only a few days earlier. And she knew that that meant Regulus's wedding was happening at any moment. She liked to pretend like she was completely over Regulus, and she thought she was doing a pretty great job of convincing Sirius of it.

But if he had been convinced of it, he surely wasn't anymore since Sofia had spent the last three days holed up in her room, sulking and trying not to fall apart.

It was a Sunday afternoon when Sirius wasn't busy for once that he dragged Sofia out of her room and told her about speaking with Regulus over Easter break. Sofia didn't speak for the longest time. She just sat on the sofa quietly, with her legs pulled up to her chest. What Sirius said made sense. And she had suspected something like that before. She just wished Regulus had told her.

"You okay?" Sirius asked gingerly.

Sofia chuckled almost involuntarily. "I guess... it just confuses me and... angers me that he never thought to tell me any of this. I think that we could've figured things out together."

Sirius sighed deeply. He ran a hand through his hair. "I am going to tell you something about my brother, that I know you will get your hopes up about the two of us reconciling and shit after I say it, so I'm telling you now not to... My brother has many character flaws, his biggest one is that he always, always refuses to ask for help. Partly, because of how we were raised... to never show anyone weakness no matter what. He thinks he can deal with everything himself. He probably didn't want to tell you because he thought you'd offer help... and in his eyes, getting help means weakness and cowardice and other bullshit we were fed.

"Yes, what he did was wrong, and you probably shouldn't forgive him for it... but if I know anything about Regulus, it is that he'd sooner die than accept anyone's help."

Sofia thought for a moment. "Not even if someone is pretty much begging him to let them help him?"

Sirius chuckled. "Believe me... I've been in your position before. I... tried so hard to help him deal with our parents. And when I left, I... I fucking begged him to come with me, to let me help him. I knew he was miserable in that house, I knew he wanted to leave. But he still said no."

Sofia nodded slowly. "I understand. But I guess I'm just tired of... all of this. I wish things weren't so fucking irreparably broken beyond repair but... it's too late now."