speak now | regulus black

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AN: Hi, this was originally part of the previous chapter that I split last minute so I decided to just post it rn. Also, I just realised there's only like four or five chapters left in this story :// and they're all A LOT, so this chapter is a nice little break before we dive into some emotional rollercoasters and questionable decision-making :))

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ghostin — ariana grande

"though i wish he were here instead

don't want that living in your head."

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The events of the previous night hit Sofia like a ton of bricks the next morning. She didn't even remember falling asleep.

She had felt numb on the way back home from the diner but as soon as she'd walked in the door the tears had started falling involuntarily from her eyes. She tried to hide but it was quite impossible in a tiny flat she shared with four other people.

Her mother had immediately ushered Sofia into her room. Then Sofia had given a half-assed explanation about how she'd been seeing some guy at school that she really liked and he had just broken up with her in a terrible way. Luckily, Mum had accepted it and had only sent for Natasha to fetch some ice cream while Sofia laid her head on her lap and cried.

She must've fallen asleep at some point after the ice cream and all the crying. She only hoped she hadn't disturbed Natasha's sleep too much.

It was already light out, and Natasha was out of bed. Sofia heard voices outside and recognised Sirius's voice.

There was a knock on her door and Sirius walked in. He looked at her softly. "Your mum called me."

Sofia sat up and pulled her legs into her chest.

"Can I sit?" Sirius asked and Sofia nodded. "So... is it over? For good?"

Sofia looked up at him. He didn't seem especially angry or smug. Just concerned.

She nodded tentatively.

Sirius scooted over towards her and folded her into his arms. "I'm sorry."

Sofia's eyes filled with tears. Her throat felt tight. "It was my own fault. You were right. I should've known."

Sirius sighed deeply. "This is not your fault. At all."

Sofia laid her head on Sirius's chest. "I... I thought I had him figured out. But I'm starting to think that I didn't know shit."

"You made a mistake, Sofia. It happens. Especially when you're blinded by..."

Sofia averted her eyes. "You can say it. Love."

Sirius went very still. "You really loved him?"

"I... I thought I did. But I might be wrong." She wanted to be wrong. But she knew deep in her heart that she still ached with love for him, which just made her feel so fucking stupid admitting just how hard she'd fallen for him now. Regulus had been right. She'd been stupid to think they would last forever.

"It's okay, Sonya. You'll get through this. I know you will."

Sofia appreciated him holding back what he really thought.

"He never deserved you," Sirius said. "Not even a little bit."

"Can we not talk about this? It's over now. I don't even want to think about it. I don't want to think about him."