Mr. Styles

Chapter 54

Harry's P.O.V.

The car ride home was uncomfortably silent. I asked Liam to drive because I wanted to sit in the back with Elena. We were both feeling two completely different things so I had absolutely no idea how to comfort her. I can't imagine what she is going through of course, but now we can erase Gregory from our minds completely. I don't even know why she loved him in the first place.

I sighed and looked down at her. I wanted to let go of her hand because of how much they were sweating but I didn't move. Her eyes stared down at our entwined fingers. I wish I knew what she was thinking.

Liam pulled up in front of the house but no one bothered to move. I closed my eyes trying to think of some way to make Elena feel better.

I body tensed hearing small cries coming from beside me. Without thinking I lifted her into my arms and carried her inside. "Elena no crying." I said sternly. I carried her into our bedroom and sat her on the bed. "Elena, why are you crying? You probably wouldn't have even liked the baby. It would have been Gregory's baby... why would you want to have his child? I mean you clearly aren't thinking straight."

She shakes her head and buries her face in her hands. "D-Daddy you don't understand... I-I want... This baby would've made me happy. I would have b-been able to love it and take care of it. I mean... I finally would've had someone who would love me as much as I love them..."

I blinked. "W-What do you mean..? You don't think I love you?"

She didn't answer.

"Elena?" I said raising an eyebrow. She didn't move from her position and I suddenly felt angry. I kneeled down in front of her and snatched her hands away from her face. "Why the fuck do you think I don't love you?! I moved to a new house for you! I stopped working just so that I can be home with you every day! I called and made sure Louis, Liam, and Zayn were all here with you to protect you and keep you safe just in case I had to leave the house or go into my office for a few hours! I buy you whatever the fuck you want! You're fucking spoiled rotten! How the fuck can you ever even think for one second that I don't love you?!" By the time I finished my rant I could barely breathe. I felt my hands shaking and I didn't even want to be around her anymore. She is so damn ungrateful.

I stood to my feet and ran my fingers through my hair.

"I-I'm sorry," she whispered.

I shook my head and let out a deep breath. "I don't want you to apologize to me. You need to apologize to yourself.."

She raised her eyes to meet mine.

I sighed. "Elena you don't think I love you because you don't love your fucking self. You probably don't even know what love is. Gregory destroyed every fucking ounce of your self esteem and made you feel defeated for the past who the hell knows how long." I pinched the bridge of my nose trying my best not to yell at her. "Greg is dead and he is not coming back. Yet he still has this hold on you."

I couldn't help but yell.

"Let him the fuck go! That baby was the product of rape! He raped you and got you pregnant with a baby that you were not mentally or physically prepared for! I'm glad you had a miscarriage... you know why? Because every time you would have looked at that baby it would have been a reminder of what that bastard did to you! It would've made you miserable and you would've hated that thing!"

I could feel my anger getting the best of me but I couldn't stop.

"You need to stop blaming yourself for what happened to you and move on. You obviously can't change anything that happened, so learn to live with it. This is not something that should stop you from living. You need to wake up! Get yourself together and fucking live! I'm doing what I can to keep you happy and keep you sane but I can't do it all on my own! So you're right... I can't love you until you love yourself.."

I couldn't look at her any longer. I rolled my eyes and left the room. I needed some air and go for a little drive. I just needed to get out of the house.

"I going out," I mumbled as I walked past Liam and Louis on the couch. I didn't wait for their reply. I grabbed my keys and headed out the door.

A/N: Hey guys....

Wow.... that was.... intense...

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Do you think he could have said it differently?

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