When Time Runs Out (JosukexReader)

Chapter 6

I didn't sleep that night. There's too much on my mind. I look out my window and watch as moths hit against the window. I remember finding dead moths in our old house in the basement. I hated that house.

The house was decent but I felt unsafe. Nothing ever happened in that house but I just hated the location. I felt as if something could happen and our house would disappear and me along with it. They asked me a simple question at school, but it felt as if that question was much deeper. "How do you want to be remembered?" How am I supposed to know?

 Back then I wanted to be remembered by my name but now I'm not sure. I know most wouldn't remember me or if they did I would be the quiet, smart kid. I am far from it. I'm just an overthinker who has to check their work over eight times before I feel ok about it. I overthink the tiniest things. I used to think that if someone lit a candle the house would burn or that if we left the house someone would break-in. My parents always told me that I was ok and that it wouldn't happen but I would still overthink. I get lost in my mind most days. I would probably have no friends if it weren't for Okuyasu. He needed help with a lot of his work and he thought that I was one of the smartest kids so he asked for help from me and liked hanging out with me and soon we became friends. Come to think of it, I owe a lot to Okuyasu. He always made sure to include me even when he knew that I would say no.

I keep watching the moths. They don't get asked stupid questions that people think are simple. Another question I've always hated was "What do you want to be when you grow up?" At first, I would say that I wanted to live with my parents forever and then they would press on about what I wanted to do for work when I got old. Why do we limit kids like that? It puts the notion that we have to be one thing and we have to like it and be good at it? I could never choose one thing. The adults in my life would always laugh it off and say I can do anything. That's the problem though. How are we supposed to choose one thing over another? I knock against my window and watch as the moths back up and then try again to go towards the light.

I go downstairs to grab a snack and some water. As I finish making myself a snack I see my mom sitting in the dining room. "Mom what are you doing up?" I see her jump in surprise. "What are you doing? Go back to bed." That doesn't answer my question. "Mom, why are you up?" "You ask too many questions. Back to bed, we can talk in the morning." I listen and head back up. I don't like that she was up. I look over at the clock 3:57. The last time she was up this late was because my mom fought with my dad. He wanted to take a job but it would require us to move far and my mom wanted to stay here for a lot of good reasons. I eat my food and continue to stare.

I watch as the night disappears and the sun rises. As soon as I hear movement I go to head downstairs. I see my dad cooking and my mom on the couch. What's going on with them. "Is everything alright dad?" he nods and doesn't make eye contact. Something is not right. I feel out of place. My dad points at the counter behind him. I almost forgot that I babysat his coworker's kids a while back. I pick up the money. There is 9471.52 yen. I could buy myself breakfast with this. "I'm going out for breakfast." Neither of them says anything. I walk to a convenience store and choose the cheapest option that I will eat. As I go to leave I see Okuyasu. "Y/n!" He runs over to me. I watch as he realizes. "Oh sorry, Y/n you still wanted to be alone." "It's fine Okuyasu. I got the break I needed I guess. I just thought you would be busy on a Saturday." "I thought I would be to but Josuke was busy." I offer to buy him some food and we could eat it in a park. He buys his food and more for me.

We walk to a field and sit at a picnic table. We talk about nothing in particular and eat. " I have an idea I'll be back Y/n stay here."

I watch as he runs off. I feel so tired. I wish that I had slept a little bit but I didn't and now I feel like I could just fall asleep. 

I feel something hit the table. I look over and see a ball. I see a kid running over to get the ball. "Hello miss, do not mind me I just need my ball." I nod and put my head down. "Miss why are you still here. Your friend left." "Why does it matter?" The kid stays quiet and walks away.

I hear Okuyasu yell my name. I look over and see Josuke along with Koichi and Yukako. I see Okuyasu carrying a couple of bags. "I figured since it was around lunch that we could have it here with everyone." I smile and nod. We all eat and talk. I feel so tired. Josuke looks at me. "Y/n how come you didn't eat breakfast at home like usual?" "My parents are acting weird. Like my mom was up at like 4 am." They talk about what it could be but I don't pay attention. I pay attention to how their voices get further away. I put my head on my arm and fell asleep.

I wake up and feel constricted. I look up to see Okuyasu carrying me by hooking his arms under my arms. I look to see Josuke is carrying my legs. It's dark out now. "You guys can stop carrying me now."Okuyasu laughs a little. "Nah we are already almost to your house anyway." "Why didn't you wake me up?" "We tried but you were out cold." "Sorry." Josuke shakes his head and speaks before Okuyasu can. "It's fine Y/n you are our friend plus the looks we got were priceless or when someone would try to ask you if you were ok." "What did I do?" "You mumbled no and then tried to roll over. The reactions were funny, to say the least." I feel embarrassed. They both laugh at talking about it. When I see my house, none of the lights are on. It can't be that late. They get up to the door. "You guys can put me down." They put me down and I unlock the door. I see my mom sleeping on the couch with my dad in the chair. I head upstairs and go back to sleep even though I'm not tired.