AUTUMN

" My son was always the bestest and well behaved boy . He used to take care of me a lot after his father left both of us to fight alone with the cruel world . I was so blind to trust my love and faith which betrayed me totally. We both had to listen and go through a lot of hardships . My son had to listen to random of things from these fickle minded people afterall it was my fault that I was never married and gave birth to him . Before his birth when I told his father that I was pregnant with his child, he totally ignored it and left me helpless to fight alone in that critical state .I blame myself for his depression, anxiety and painful tears . I always tried to comfort him and ask what exactly he is going through? but he always laughed and neglected the topic .
He stopped eating and came out of his room frequently. I was totally mentally disturbed by his sudden behaviour. I always tried to give him both father and a mother's love but now it seemed like I failed in performing everything well . At the middle of the night I used to hear him crying and shouting in a horrific way . There were scratches on the walls of his room saying "please stop,I beg you!!!!" These terrific things went on for years. I consoled different doctors but nothing worked . When one day he couldn't take it anymore, he committed suicide by hanging himself in his own room. I lost my everything, he was my last hope for whom I was living in this sorrowful life . I lost my everything, it's my fault. I regret ".

After narrating the whole story she broked down into tears . I don't know why I too felt a pain within me after hearing the lady's life story . I took a deep breath and said " That's not your fault , you tried your best for him . You have done and performed enough in a well mannered what acmother should do ? You didn't loose anything , I'm like your son " . I replied with a shine on my teary eyes . The old lady looked at me while rubbing her red puffy eyes .
"Thank you so much understanding me " she said . "I understand afterall I too lost a classmate " I said . "Classmate?" she asked in a confusion.