After After...

Josephine

The sexual tension suffocating both of us as we both lay her breathless is so intense. I've had sex before in the past but that was with silly college boys who only wanted one thing. I never did, I always wanted more, always wanted what I couldn't have. Hero is different, he's older, more mature, and I know he means well and would never hurt me

I can hear my boy panting from our session next to me.

'My boy,' I've never called anyone that before but with Hero it feel right.

I feel the bed move as his large, muscular build turns to face my naked body. I can feel his eyes on me. Unsure of what to do I turn to face him and stare into his magical eyes. A strand of hair falls onto his face and I go to move it but I stop on my way to do so and realise how attractive it makes him look. Who knew a strand of hair would make the man in falling for one hundred more times attractive?

Everything is still. Silent. I take in all I have in my life and realise I need nothing else to be happy.

"Move in with me Jo."

I can feel my eyes go wide and my face turn red.

"What?"

"Move in with me, it makes sense. We've known each other for years now so it's not like we've only just met, and your my girlfriend now so it just makes sense. We'll both move to LA, both of us are there a lot of the time so there would be less travelling for both of us. Move in with me."

I'm speechless, I'm sure living with Hero would be great and we'd have the best time, given the fact I never feel any awkwardness when I'm around him, but I'm not sure. We live in two different countries at the moment and both have friends there. My parents live in Perth with the rest of my family.

"I'm not too sure, Hero," I take a breath.

"Moving in with each other will be a big step in our relationship, I see no problems with it but are you sure you want this?"

He moves his hand up to stroke my shoulder in a circular motion applying just the right amount of pressure.

"Of course I want this, I wouldn't have asked if I wasn't one hundred percent sure."

I still am unsure on the idea even with Hero reassurance so I give him a dainty smile and roll over to go to sleep. The day, even though not much has happened, has been long and I've never felt this tired before. I back up against Hero so that my back is against his front and he holds me, tight, for the hold night which I am thankful for as he didn't question me on my rude action on ignoring his crazy idea.

I think it's about 3am when I suddenly wake up from a noise from outside of Hero's hotel bedroom, I stay still for a moment to see if it carries on and it does. I look out the window and see that it's raining so heavily i can barley hear myself think. I turn to Hero to wake him up and warn him about the noise but as I move my arm to him I realise he's not there. Has he already gone to check the noise out? Is he in trouble? I get up from his bed and scurry quickly over to the chair that has one of his worn T-shirt's hanging off of it and pull it over my body. The door is already a crack open and when I pull it to open fully I'm shocked when I see Hero, dripping in sweat, hunched over one of the kitchen counters. He has long black shorts on with no top, the light exposing his tense muscles. He's panting, like he's done a work out.

"Hero?" He doesn't hear me.

I walk closer and soon realise the heavy rain is probably drowning out my footsteps. I get to him and gently place my hand on his soaking back. I can tell he wasn't expecting me because as soon as I do his whole body jolts.

"Hero, I'm so sorry I didn't mean to scare you. I heard a noise and you weren't in the bedroom and-" I stop when I notice how bloodshot his eyes are, my head then beings to race when I see about half a dozen pills scattered on the counter in front of him. I realise what he has done, and he knows that I know what he has done.

"Wha-" I choke on my own words.

"Why, Hero? Why have you don't such a thing?" I want my tone to come across as calm to not freak him out but also come across as worried and confused.

"You wasn't meant to see this Jo." His big arms are leaning against the counter, stopping himself from falling flat.

"Please, Hero. Please tell me what's wrong." I need answers now before i start to assume things.

"I'm ill, Jo. I've been diagnosed with Luekemia." My heart sinks and I feel the burning sensation of my tears on my skin.

"I know things won't get better so I've been slowly overdosing on my pills to make something happen, I know how selfish I am for starting ask of this with you and I know you must hate me for it but your my light Josephine Langford. When I'm alone I hate myself but when I'm with you, I'm the happiest guy in the world."

I haven't realised it before, or that I has done it but my hands are squeezing his, wanting to never let go.

I feel a hole in my heart start to form and the pain is so unbearable I feel as if I'm going to be sick.

After a moment of silence, Hero's voice echos, "Can we talk about this tomorrow, I feel bad enough waking you up and now having to tell you this, I don't think I can explain it all to you tonight."

I nod my head in agreement.

"I'll move in with you."

He looks up at me.

"What?"

"I'll move in with you. I want to be with you every minute of everyday. It's you and me. Always has been."

"I love you Josephine Langford."

"I love you Hero Fiennes Tiffin."