Wow.

第14章 (Chapter 14)

TW: Angst and thoughts of being worthless. If you feel uncomfortable, please leave this chapter/book 'cause it probably gon get more angst in future chapters. I don't know, we'll see how I feel later on.

I'm so sorry, but this book needs some angst. 

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It was a night like no other. Naruto went to the Hokage Tower, came back to drag Sasuke to lunch, went back to work, and then came back home for the night. 

It was just... normal for them. 

But... today something was... off with Sasuke. Naruto knew it instantly as he came through the door at 10:10 pm. 

Sasuke usually waited for Naruto so they can cook dinner together, but... Naruto came home to already made dinner.

That wasn't the first red flag though. Even though Sasuke still has that broody-ass attitude since childhood, Naruto got him to smile just a tad bit more.

But, Sasuke hasn't smiled the whole day. 

Now that was the first red flag. The dinner thing was the second. 

Finally, what was the icing on the cake for Naruto was that Sasuke didn't even ask how was work. Sasuke always, in a bad mood or not, asked him how was work that day. 

That was the final straw for Naruto. After dinner in the most awkward silence, Naruto ever had to be in, Naruto cleaned up while Sasuke sat at the table... just staring. 

It was so uncomfortable and not like him. 

Naruto grabbed his hand softly, causing Sasuke to flinch a little and look up at his blonde. 

Dazzling black met ocean blue irises. 

"C'mon, let's go to bed, Sasuke-teme!" said Naruto, clearly trying to sound happy and cheerful, but failing when he didn't get a response from Sasuke. Sasuke just simply stood up and nodded, not even making eye contact.

Every second, every minute that went by, Naruto got more and more concerned for his lover. 

Sasuke and Naruto sat on the bed, not saying anything, even though it was clearly obvious that Naruto was staring into Sasuke's soul. 

Finally, after five, grueling, agonizing minutes, Naruto spoke up.

"Sasuke, what's up with you?" Sasuke's eyes widen and he snapped his head towards his blonde lover, who used his first name, and only his first name. 

"I-I... nothing is wrong, Dobe, y-you're just overreacting t-things," Sasuke replied, with a stutter. He internally panicked because Naruto knew Sasuke like the back of his hand. Naruto knew that Sasuke only stuttered when he was either lying or extremely nervous. 

Of course, in response, Naruto unconvincingly raised an eyebrow. 

"Oh really?" 

Sasuke nodded slowly, not making eye contact. 

Shit, shit, shit! Goddammit, what the hell do I do now?! He can't find out, he can't! Hinata will kill me if he finds out. 

"Sasuke." That single word of that deep voice sends chills down Sasuke's spine. He heard a sigh. 

"If you can look me in the eye, and tell me you're ok, which you're not, I'll believe you." Sasuke didn't move, which confirmed Naruto's suspicions. 

He's not ok. 

"Sasuke," he started, with a softer tone of voice. "You know you can talk to me, I just wanna see you smile again." Nothing. "Sasuke, please, what is going on in that head of yours?" 

One second, Sasuke's head was facing away from him. The next, Naruto felt a strong grip of Sasuke hugging him. Really, really tight. 

He was shocked, yes, but he instantly hugged back. 

He then heard sniffing. Then, soft crying. 

"S-Sasuke-teme?" 

That's when he broke down. 

That's when Sasuke Uchiha, the only Uchiha left beside his older brother, broke down in tears. 

"N-Naruto, I'm so sorry, I-I can't be the boyfriend you deserve. Y-you deserve someone who can laugh more at your surprisingly good joke, someone who can smile more with y-you! I-I can't do that, I'm not worthy of that, I'm worthless. I-I can't give you what you deserve, y-you deserve so goddamn much! Hinata was right, I'm not w-worthy of your time, effort, and l-love! I-I'm so sorry that you have to deal with a guy as terrible as me!" At that point, Sasuke didn't even know what was coming out of his mouth until Naruto spoke up.

"What did Hinata say to you?" That made Sasuke realize he made a grave mistake. He wasn't supposed to say all that. He adjusted his head to look at Naruto's face and shivered when he saw Naruto's bloodshot eyes. 

"Ok, I'll deal with *her* later but..." He trailed off, eyes turning back to normal. 

Naruto let go of Sasuke and looked him dead in the eye. "Sasuke, you are more than enough for me. As soon as I saw you when we were kids, I knew you'd be the perfect guy for me. I was so blinded by my "lOvE" for Sakuhoe, that I didn't realize that an amazing, outstanding guy was standing a mere two feet from me. Who cares what Hinata says to you, just know that you're the only one who can truly tolerate my cheerful and unmatured behavior." 

Sasuke's tears stopped coming, which was a good sign. Sasuke whipped his tears and looked back at Naruto. "Y-you mean it?" Naruto smiled as he saw that beautiful small smile of Sasuke. The smile he's been dying to see all day. 

"Yes! Every word of it!" 

Five minutes later, both with tangled together in bed. Sasuke's chin on top of Naruto's head, and Naruto in the crook of Sasuke's neck.

Sasuke was out like a light. 

Before Naruto shut his eyes, he knew one thing. 

I will protect my man with everything I got, keep him away from Sakuhoe and that bitch, Hinata. 

Naruto paused. 

Speaking of her, I'll kill her later for making my Teme feel this way.