Girl With Beanie

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On my way home, I continuously remind myself of Ethan. I mean like, why is he literally want to be my friend? I don't or more precisely I don't want to get attached. Any minute, any day, and any moment it could be that last day of my life. I know, I wasn't supposed to get this kind of feeling but I scared. I don't want to get attached to you, Ethan...

"So are you going to tell me about your friend back then hm?" Uncle asked me while giving me this look you better tell me before I tell your mother. Sighed, this is so hard. "I'm not saying that he is my friend, you know that I'm not that kind of person. You know that I have been sick my whole life and getting friends are making me get attached to them and I don't want it!. I don't want to waste my life feeling like shit after any minutes now I might die" And by then, I heard my uncle sighing. I know I was being harsh. It just pained me.

After a long-ass car ride with awkwardness lingers around me and my uncle, I slipped away to get to my room and cried. Cry, cry, and crying non-stop. Why did I just get to had this bitch of sickness? It kills me! I also want to feel love but I'm afraid. If any minute, it could come back and kill me and I rather die before that. And that night, I don't have any appetite until I heard my mother coming into my room.

"Hey sweetie.. want to talk?" She saying it softly while knocking on my door. "No, go away mom" While I'm changing into my pajamas and lying on my bed. Well, of course, I know my mother, she is giving up until she gets what she wants and by then my door was opening while she holding a bunch of keys. I sighed while holding my pillow "Why am I not surprise to see you do that?" And I feel my bed dipped and her hand patting slowly my legs. "Well, I'm pretty sure that I told you that I won't leave you alone. So what is this? Your uncle told you have been pretty depressed shit that what he said " I slowly remove my pillow and getting up while holding it.

"Well um, this is one boy that has been clinging to me and chants up that he wants to my friend.." I fidgeting with my pajamas. Then I heard my mother sighed. "So why didn't you let that boy being your friend? You need some friend Hunny... It is time for you to be with people. I always have seen you being alone since kindergarten until now and it is pained me to see that. And it is okay having a friend" She said slowly while hugging me. "I don't know mom, I don't want to get attach to someone while I keep thinking that by any minute that I'm going to die and most importantly I will leave you which I don't want but I'm scared mom," I mumbled while hugging her too.

"Look sweetie, there is nothing wrong with being afraid. Everyone has fear and don't you think that I'm scared for you for leaving me like your dad? I got nobody except you and your uncle. But at the same time, I don't want you to feel like this. This is not okay. Be with your friend, go join any club that you want, be what you want to be, and don't let this bitch keep holding you. Are you listening to me?" I can see that she keeping herself together and on the edge of crying too. I just nodded. I won't mom, I promise...

On the next day, I found myself looking for him which is Ethan Ramsey. I know that he is some kind of famous kid here well everyone keeps looking at him and giving high five. I sighed while opening my locker. "Hey Aileen, looking for me?" Then I look, and shall he be here. "Nobody misses you because you so freaking annoying haha" I laughed while taking some book to my next class. "Are you laughing right now? Somebody pinch me" He is being shocked while pinching himself. I sighed, and walk ahead of him. "Hey, hey! wait" I did stop walking while looking at him. "I'm sorry, it just I have never seen you laugh before. You look beautiful, you should smile more" He smiled at me while slowly walk to me and grab my hand to go to our class together. I blushed, no one has said that to me before...

After we take our seat, he has reached to get my phone that I put my phone on the table before I take a seat. "Hey, give it back!" I literally jumping on him trying to take my damn phone but pardon me for being short and why it is he is so tall!. He laughs while holding my head to stop me for reach my phone. "Okay, I will give it back to you unless you sit first. You look like a monkey sugarplum" He laughs while sit and keeps on holding my phone. I huffed and fixed my beanie and my hair.

 After I already fixed it, I see that he typing something on my phone. "What are you doing?" He keeps typing something and finally gives it to me. "I save my number on your phone since you literally shy for asking it thank you. I did expect you to answer my text from now on okay sugarplum?" He said while smiling and ruffles my beanie again. I get a small glance at my phone as in teacher came in. And guess what did I found? He literally saves his number as "My soon-to-be boyfriend" And literally changes my wallpaper and my lock screen as his picture. I wonder when did he take a selfie. I glared at him as he winks at me. 

To be honest he looks so hot... Oh my god, Aileen! get yourself together!. I literally slapped my face lightly as I heard that he is laughing slowly. He put his hand around my shoulder and pull me toward him as in "If you like that, I will send my picture from now on. And don't you think I didn't see that blush. I like you too okay, and I'm trying hard to make you fall in love with me as in I fall in love with you at first sight" I did manage to push him and huffed while looking at the windows and also blushing...

And what did I said not to get attached? Well scratch that, I literally have a crush on this guy.

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New chapters, I hope this is okay? This is what I imagine Ethan and Aileen's relationship looks like. I know maybe some of you will hopefully that Ethan will be some typical jocks but I'm not doing that. Because to me, I literally imagine he is like a sweet guy, also an athlete well basketball athlete and found himself getting attach with Aileen as he thinks that Aileen is an interesting person. 

As in Aileen, she is an introverted person and not doing great with the crowd but she is trying to be in that crowd. As you can see, she is always been alone since kindergarten because she is afraid. But she is trying to live her life to the fullest so give it some time for her to break her wall to be in the crowds okay? Give some love to our girl here!

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