Breathless (Kuroo x Kenma) [timeskip]

Anxious Arrival

8:35 am. 10 minutes early like always. I step off the train with my console held tightly in my two hands, focusing on the game more than ever. I normally don't bring all my attention to whichever game I'm playing, I bring most of my attention towards Kuroo. It seems like he always has something to talk about. Not surprising really, he's a much more productive person than I am. Anyways, it seems like Kuroo has been running on my mind too much, I need to bring my full attention to this game otherwise I'll carry on thinking about him.  

I slowly walk to the nearest bench and sit with my face scrunched up tightly and squinted eyes, mashing buttons aggressively. Do people think I look stupid? I should probably stop. But I don't want to stop. I need to distract myself. Distract myself from my fear. Distract myself from the feeling of loneliness. Distract myself from him. 

My chest aches slightly, causing me to gasp. I grasp and pull my shirt forward. It feels tight around my body. It's like my shirt is stopping me from breathing. It feels like someone took a brick and dropped it directly on my chest. I take a few deep breaths in and try to calm myself down. Is this a sign? It must be. I have to go home. No Kenma, suck it up and deal with it. Stop being so pathetic. School hasn't even started and all you've done is play games. 

I feel so conflicted by my own thoughts. The voices in my head keep on bickering. It exhausts me too much. It drains me. It angers me. It needs to stop. 

The sound of a bell chimes from afar. The new school year has officially begun.