demons (the 100 bellamy blake)

Chapter 8

(i apologize in advance for this mess of a chapter but the was no other way to do it than to switch povs a bunch of times i know its annoying)

BELLAMYS POV

i carried yasmine back to the dropship. she blacked out half an hour ago leaving my mind scattered, did i lover her did she love me or was she just delusional. I know that if i could go back to that cave i would and i would swap places with her, in a heartbeat but i know she wouldn't of let me one part of me blamed Yasmine if she had listened, to me if she let me kill that grounder, she would be safe. the other part of me blamed myself she followed me into that woods as did john diggs and roma all dead because of me they followed me into that woods jasper bursts through the fence to the dropship

"CLARKE WHERE'S CLARKE get clarke  now " he shouted 

"hey i'm here what's up" clarke says before turning to me holding yasmine's limb body she was pale weak and fragile i was scared it was already to late for her

"yasmine" clarke rushes forward assessing yasmines wound the knife sticking out of her side 

"oh my god oh my god" clarke says putting her fingers on yasmines neck "shes alive" clarke announces relief floods thought me  i don't know what i would do if she dies

"she told us not to take the knife out and that you would know what to do" 

"that was a good call get her in the dropship" clarke says i gently hand her over to a group of people reluctantly watch as octavia tries to leave no she won't not after what she just pulled not what just happened to yasmine 

"hey hey" i call out after her

"why were you defending him" i asked her 

"because he saved my life that spear that hit roma was actually meant for me" octavia says but i cut her of

"no your wrong i saved you life for all you know he was keeping you alive to use you as bait for one of their traps"

"no i don't think so"

"you dont think O thats the problem they killed 3 of our people today and yasmine is in the dropship fighting for her life and if you would of let me kill him when i had the chance  yasmine wouldn't be in there dying right now and she would be safe" 

"stop blaming me for your mistakes bellamy what happened to your little girlfriend is not my fault i wanted to leave so if yasmine dies in there thats on you she wouldn't of gone out there if it wasn't for you" i knew she was right in that moment yasmine's death would be on me it would haunt me i stare blankly at octavia "everything thats gone wrong is because of you got me locked up on the ark you wanted me to go to that stupid dance you got mum killed" this sparked some kind of deep suppressed anger in me 

"me mum was floated for having you she's dead because you're alive that was her choice i didn't have a choice my life ended the day you were born" octavia's face dropped she tried to walk of but i yanked her back i didn't mean what i said it was out of anger sadness but i wasn't going to let her see that "where do you think you're going" 

"you can't keep me locked up in here forever" octavias says storming of into the camp as long as she was on the inside of the walls not the outside i didn't care what she thought of me as long as am still breathing she is staying in this dropship safe 

"get inside" i shouted at someone stood outside the wall "go" i shouted as they pushed past me i looked up at the storm brewing in the sky i slammed the gate shut and walked into the dropship and over to yasmine who still had the blade sticking out of her