Little Black Dress (NIALL HORAN)

Week Two

Another week has passed and I'm still stuck here in this room. Not that I'm complaining coz its certainly my choice why I'm here. Unlike the other week I was able to take a shower now, shave and eat but my windows still close, afraid of what outside will look like when I have it opened. Its been two weeks away from Megan and never even in a second she left my mind. I called Nana, yeah I did. She was worried sick about me and I know of all people she should be the first person to know what happen to me. I heard Megan is with her father, I hope her dad won't let her down this time. She needs him more than anything, now she'll have someone to call as family. Next person I communicate with is Liam, he's just the most matured one among the boys. One Direction's not doing well but they're recovering. I let them down but Liam assured me the boys understand. I'm glad that the five of us have this relationship not just because we belong to a band but because we're more of brothers. They've been there for me since day one and I'm very much thankful.

I'm sitting in this bed, leaning my back against the headboard, scrolling down photos of Megan I have in my phone. Watching videos of her laughing, cooking, eating and even sleeping. Nobody compares to her, she made me love her unexpectedly. She opened my heart without me knowing and I'm captivated. I've waited all my life to finally found the girl that would make me feel like this but I let her go, not because the love's not there but because my love for her is too much to know when to let go or not. A time machine maybe the answer to my problem but no, I wouldn't change any of it. I will still love Megan and do the same thing for her eventhough I'm scared all of this might happen again.

As I continue to scroll down my phone it begins to ring. And like what my heart wants its Megan's name that flashes on the screen. My heart is beating fast and for days I even forgot its still there but now I can feel it. But I didn't answer it, I don't know what to say. The call went straight to voicemail and I listened to it like its an announcement of where to evacuate when there is a zombie apocalypse.
"Hello? Hi Naill. I don't know if you'll get this but.. yeah I know its silly to be talking to an answering machine but its the only way I know to feel that you're still there. I'm with my dad, you'll be proud of me for giving him the chance you said. We're trying to catch up for the lost time and I'm starting to you know, forget what he did. Jake came.. I hate him. I don't want to talk about it Naill but I just want you to know he already left and he promised this time he is not coming back. Uhhmmm.. whatelse? I have nothing to say.. you? How are you? I hope you're eating well.. too bad I can't cook for you anymore.. I wish I can.. Well, I.. Uhmmm.. I miss you Naill. I don't know why you left but I have a feeling that this is you trying to act like my superhero. Its really ridiculous but I can feel it. Is it right? I have to go, my dad's calling me. I'm learning how to drive now, a little late but hey don't judge. I'll call you back Naill. I love you and I hope you'll copy this"

I'm crying again like last week but this time I cried because I'm so happy. I wanted to answer the phone but listening to her is much better. And I've never felt so alive that I actually decide to finally see the light from outside. Yeah, my curtains are open widely and the smile in my face is starting to hurt my cheeks. I listen to the voicemail again, and then again. Its really Megan, I can imagine her lying on the bed while making the call. Her blue eyes sparkles with excitement as she tells me whats happening to her life. Things are starting to be okay but its too soon to walk into her life again. I have to fix myself first. My career, Stacy and other issues. Coz if I claim my Megan back this time would be for good and there is no way in hell I will leave her again.