If This Was a Movie

Thinking Of You

Haley's P.O.V

I lay in my golden bed the next morning, my mascara on the pillow. I cried myself asleep last night. No one had to know that, and nobody would. I stretched over to the edge of the bed. I pulled myself out of the sheets and my comforter and edged around the clothes and cases to the door. Nobody made the slightest of stirs; nobody was home.

"Abi? Aunt Kara?!" I called, but only the echoes filled the house. No body replied.

I sighed, tossing my hair to my shoulders, then grabbed my door handle. I forced the door open, grabbed a suitcase and rumaged around for my underwear, some clothes and shoes. Eventually, to my success, I found a good outfit after only a few minutes. I yanked my phone that I'd put on the floor last night and switched lock off. I flicked through my missed messages and voicemails. The usual came up. Then, there was one from TJ.

"Haley, it's me" he sighed "It's 3 am and I feel like I'm dieing. I know you won't come and I dunno, save me? But, I just hope you'll visit. There's some stuff I want to clear. See you in school..Maybe"

I ran down the stairs, grabbed my bag and a nut bar and flew out the door. I locked the door, raced to the bottom of the path and jumped into my car. I was off to school when I jammed the key into the ignition. I stomped the pedal, which launched me forward. Sure, my car was pretty terrible, but I knew how to get it working.

*

"Jane!" I called, pushing my way through the crowd, searching for Jane.

Eventually, she replied loud enough for me to hear and grabbed my hand. The bell rung and everybody scattered like mice. It was just me and Jane.

"Hey, have you seen T-"

"He's just in the parking lot" she breathed, cutting me out.

I nodded, smiled, mouthed a thank you and ran fast and hard to the door. I almost fell through the door, but I got there. TJ was balanced on his car, with Audrina.

"TJ!" I called.

He took his eyes away from Audrina's chest for just enough time to recognise it was me. After that, his eyes darted to her lips. He kissed her, pulling her close. My eyes were always like fountains that had a block in them. But what I did after, didn't make me seem like a fountain.

She was crying hysterically on the floor by the time I was finished. I'd slapped her, and pushed her over. TJ was shocked, and couldn't do anything. I drop his hand and grabbed and ran to my car. I drove to some deserted town and cried in a café for a good while. A young lady, approached me while I sipped my coffee. 

"Hey, sweetie, you ok?" she questioned.

I looked up at the holder of the familiar voice.

"Mom?" I mimicked her voice.

"Yeah, sweetie. What's up?"

"Why should you care?"

"Excuse me?"

"I said WHY SHOULD YOU CARE? YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT MY LIFE? YOU DON'T CARE!"

I slammed some money on the table and jumped just once more into my trustable car...Or so I thought it was.

While I drove along some forest-like road, the rain poured down and my wheels were drenched from going through so many puddles. The car slid, nearly smashing into a tree, and I was forced to walk. No signal on my phone, and I was wearing hardly anything - White jeans, red converse, a black corset-top and my red barely-thick hoodie-. I cried even more on the walk home, realising I'd have an hour or two to walk, two angry parents, an anxious aunt and a crying sister to wait for at the house. Sure, my parents wouldn't even go near the house, but they'd sure as enough call. I decided taking a short cut through the woods to my favourite spot would really settle my nerves.

When I reached the small patch of forest that had dried when the afternoon sun had hit it, I sat down, leaning my back against a tree. Shadows crept about the eery place while I sighed, hummed and talked to myself.

"Why does it all happen together?" I sighed.

"Because you get all uptight" TJ's familiar voice replied. 

I turned to him, scared. He was still in a cast and he looked pretty much in pain.

"Why are you here?" He questioned.

"Oh believe me, I didn't want to be here.." I trailed off.

"Why not?"

"Why so many questions?" 

"Haley, look at me"

I realised through nearly all of our 'conversation' I began to look at a tree. I sighed, turned to TJ. I was shivering and my lip was quivering. I hardly moved or took a breath while TJ sat beside me. No word did I speak, no noise let slip. Just the hard, cold silence filled the air. 

"TJ" I finally let the words murmur.

"Haley, I'm sorry" he replied.

"Shut up"

"No I a-"

"No, you're not! You don't care! You wouldn't jump out of a window just like that, just because you panicked, NO ONE DOES THAT!"

"I did because-"

"I mean, you just sear that you'll love me forever and then you..leave...and come back-"

"Haley"

"..Different"

The words fell hard and quick. They hit me in my gut, making me breathless. TJ sat there, astounded, and frightened. The cold air lingered around us, daring one of us to speak again.

"I'm not different, you are" TJ cautiously glared at me. "You have gone physcopathic and you dream about boys. Why did you leave, Haley?"

I realised I was in deep trouble.

"I.." stuttered from my lips.

"The other day at the hospital, why'd you go? And at school? Because I kissed someone? Haley, you've lost it"

"No, TJ. I never lost it. YOU JUST CHANGED ME. YOU PICKED ME UP AND THREW ME AROUND. I WASN'T GOING TO BE THAT WAY! EUROPE HELPED CHANGE ME. THE OTHER DAY, I HATED WHAT YOU DID, BUT I FELT LIKE I LOVED YOU NONE THE LESS. YOU KISSED A GIRL WHEN YOU KNEW...you knew I still liked you"

I raced off towards somewhere, running to anywhere, being with no one.