Dear Louis, I have to sleep now, but I cannot.
It's four o'clock now, and you're asleep on our bed and still next to me. I'm afraid to hurt you. I'm still afraid, although it's all over.
I remember you said that I made you better, but I have one secret. You've always been like this, you just didn't know it before.
You are amazing. You saved my life, Louis Tomlinson. I was once told: "Love is measured in the actions that you do for the sake of the person you love." You did. You've proven. It was you, Louis Tomlinson, who fell in love with me, made me love yourself and love you.
I saw you with people you love and I think you will leave a lot of good things behind. You can save the world or change it, but you have already made it the best place for all these people who are important to you. For me.
I'm so sorry that I made you go through all this and that you had to watch me die.
I remember how we met. I really remember this day because you put up with me. Then I was an arrogant 17 year old child, and now I am 27 and I intend to live for a very long time. I not only lived to that age, but I also met you. You entered my room with your most beautiful smile and I, honestly, already then realized that it would end well, but with obstacles.
I thought about you all that evening and realized one thing, you are the one who needs me. A guy who believes in world peace. You're a wonderful person.
A week later we went for a walk for the first time. You asked the doctor if I could go outside and he gave me permission, we went to your favorite park and now we have our names on one of the trees.
I love all the little things about you. I love all of our joint tattoos. I was afraid to do them, but you assured me that you would not regret them in the future.
You introduced me to your family, your mom is so wonderful. I introduced you to my family, too, and you found a common language with my mother, and this must be achieved when it comes to me.
Once you said: "I will always be with you, no matter where you are. I will never forget you, Harry."
I burst into tears that day, because again I thought that I was not worthy of you. Mom saw this and called you. You dropped everything and came to me. I appreciate it. You soothed me all night, kissed me and we fell asleep in the morning. I love you.
You went through all my obstacles in life with me. It was difficult for both of us, but you endured, and I endured it all thanks to you.
I know that you will never leave me. You did not leave me when I was on the verge of death and life, so you will not leave me now.
As you know now, everything is fine with me and I have said all these words to you millions of times, but I want to express them on paper so that you can read them when I am not around.
I didn't think I would have a family. My family. But you also changed that in my life. We have an amazing daughter and son. Johanna looks so much like you that I want to cry. We didn't choose them because they were like us. One of the reasons for this is that we took them very small, but she really looks like you. And we named her after your mom. You suggested it and I agreed. I really didn't mind, because this woman is so important to both of us.
Louis, you said George was like me and it was true. His green eyes confirm your words, and whether he is curly or not, we will find out later.
Our wedding took place with family and friends. Niall was crying. At that time, I did not remember the last time he cried in front of someone. And that was one of those moments when I realized that Niall is really an important person in my life.
Liam and Zayn were also there and we saw their tears too. Your friends fell in love with me on the day that Niall also loved you. Now we go to that bar almost every weekend.
Clifford. This is a wonderful dog. She once helped us make peace. That week before the operation, we had a fight and I went out for a walk in our park, and there you, I am lying on the ground and Cliford on top of me. From that day on we realized that the quarrel is something temporary.
Dear Louis Tomlinson, I know you have heard these words many times from my lips, but I will say it again. Louis Tomlinson, you are the most wonderful person in this world and I love you. I love you so much that words cannot describe it. I love our children. I love our families. I love Clifford. I love Niall, Zayn, Liam. I love myself.
You changed me, you were able to reach my heart and conquer you. I was afraid to let people in, knowing that I would die, but you didn't care. You went for it knowing that I was strong.
I love you Mr. Tomlinson.
Forever yours, Harry.
