desire ; johnten [ ✓ ]

EIGHT

johnny opened his eyes, blinking for a few moments until his vision cleared completely. the entire room (if you could even call it that) was entirely dark, only for the shining light coming somehow above where johnny stood.

his eyes nervously glanced around, looking for anything he could see, even vaguely, in the darkness that seemed to go on and on.

was he dead? was this some form of hell?

he shivered — no, johnny couldn't be dead. he couldn't leave ten alone in that now monster infested world. he didn't trust those other people to keep his ten safe.

"calm the fuck down," someone spoke in his voice but with a loud echo that rang in johnny's poor ears. johnny's breath hitched; he couldn't see anyone in the pitch darkness, his eyes growing wider in fear. "i can feel your anger and it fucking hurts."

"who's there..." his voice trailed off, seeing a man walk towards him, becoming more and more visible as he stepped into the light. it was him, only greyed out with lifeless black eyes that showed no reflection of him nor the light.

"me," it said with a grin, it's body blurring before returning to full focus. "well, you. finally out of that damn mirror and god it feels amazing."

off of johnny's horrified look, it continued to talk in it's somewhat chilling voice. "we're in your head and i'm basically your inner thoughts, finally free from that annoying arse mirror," it laughed and johnny hated how it sounded identical to his. "but now i can feel every single emotion you feel and it's fucking annoying.

"and i was right saying you want him," his inner thoughts went on, smirking as it's voice lost it's angry tone. "your ten? johnny, you're giving your desire a fucking feast you dumb idiot."

now confusion was thrown into the mix — johnny's desire? what did his inner thoughts mean by that? but as if his inner thoughts read his mind, it answered his nonverbal question.

"you wanted to be alone and what not," his inner thoughts started. "but then you saw ten and suddenly had a desire to protect him. so selfish for someone, anyone, you latched onto the first helpless person you saw. little, helpless ten. your ten."

it's laugh rang in johnny's ears again.

"just admit it, john," his inner voice suddenly hissed. "you like ten. a lot more than you realise."

it walked closer, the inner thoughts' entire body blurring before it came to focus again once he was right in johnny's face, who gave it a silent wide-eyed look of disbelief mixed with fear. "give in and turn into the monster you're destined to be, just to protect your ten from anyone hurting his precious body."

johnny backed away and it simply just kept walking forward, giving him a rather creepy, toothy grin.

johnny kept going, backing away into the darkness. his inner thoughts' voice became louder as it spoke again.

"there's no escape, johnny," it growled. "give. in."

johnny's heart quickened it's pace in panic. until... heard ten's voice. calling his name as if he was looking for him. he turned around, seeing ten, looking as if he was glowing; the only light in the thick darkness. his inner thoughts sneered.

"johnny?" called ten, his eyes searching for the man he had grown attached to. "johnny? johnny!"

he finally saw who he was looking for. he smiled and johnny found himself smiling too, hearing his inner thoughts repeatedly hissing, "stop being happy" under his breath.

suddenly, ten shone brighter and all johnny saw was blinding white light.

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