Hated

I'm still sitting on Levi's bed and I can feel how my cheeks are getting redder when I think about him kissing my arm... is the level of sorryness he's feeling for me that high?My heart beats fast and I'm so happy. Happy that I went to search Levi and to have found him.

He is so nice to me.

He comes in with two mugs and sits next to me.

" Thank you" I smile and take the mug.

" No problem" He says and watches me.

Argh... I can't drink when he looks so cute at me. I start drinking but I spill it on my lap. I'm so embarassing.

" Oh.." He takes another handkerchief and wipes the water from my lap. I turn red and suddenly remember of the things what happened at the toilet. WHY.

" T-t-thank you" I stutter like an Idiot.

He smiles at me and my heart melts.

" U-uhhm.. w-why did you k-kiss my arm a while a-go?"

Wait.. WHY AM I ASKING HIM THAT?

" Hm? I can't remember"

He can't remember? But wait.. he blushes slightly! So adorable.

" Ooh.. " I look down.

" Do you want me to remember it?" He looks at me and plays with the sleeve of his shirt what shows that he's nervous.

This question... what does it means? I don't know but to be honest I want him to remember it. So I nod.

He blushes a bit more and I must blush too but he says nothing. We are sitting next to each other and it's quiet. I look around.

" T-that's your room, right?" I try to find something to talk about.

" Yes.  And the room next to this room is Mikasa's"

" Ahh... Mikasa, your sister"

" Yeah"

" She isn't at home?

" No, she has a boyfriend.. Jean. I don't like him, but I want my sister to be happy, so I let them be together" He smiles.

Jean. He was in the same class as me in primary school. He was an asshole, I wonder if he changed.

" But if this horseface should do something wrong I'll beat him up"

" Haha yes." I smile. " It seems like you're a nice brother"

He looks a bit suprised. " M-maybe"

" But you aren't just a nice brother, you're generally a very nice person" I blush more. Argh.

" Is that so?.... But you too. I don't understand why people stay away from you. Just because of your wounds? That isn't fair.."

I can't believe it... it's the first time in my life that someone understands me, so I suddenly hug him tightly.

He looks so suprised and places his hands on my back when he hugged me back. This feeling is so wonderfull. I can feel his body heat and his breath. I don't want to let him go.

" Is... it okay for you that I hug you?"

" Of course..." He smiles and puts his head on my shoulder.

" Levi..."

" Hm?"

" I feel so safe when I'm with you "

I hug him tighter hoping that I don't say anything wrong.

" Really?"

" Yes."

He sits slowly on my lap and looks deep in my eyes. I blush more and more and can see how his cheeks are getting reddish too.

" And I... I.. I'm so nervous when I'm with you"

" Why?" I look deeper in his eyes.

" I'm not sure" He stares at my lips.
" But... my heart is beating so fast too"

" L-levi..." I close my eyes slowly and kiss him. His warm lips are so soft. He puts his hands on my hips.

I deepen the kiss and pushes him closer to me. This moment is perfect . I forget everything. The pain, my parents and everything else.

" I.... I think I love you.." I say after we finish the kiss and look shamefull into each others eyes. I can't believe that I said it.

I hope this wasn't to quick.

" Are you sure..? Is this really love you feel, or do you like me just because I'm the only one you have?" He looks to the the side.

This question suprise me, but I know what to answer.

" You are right but also wrong. You are the only one I have, but... You are the one I want to have my whole life next to me. I really love you, my heart beats like crazy and all I want is just you.. and no one else"

I turn his head to me and look him in his eyes again and see a few tears. Why is he crying? I want to wipe his tears away, but he interrupts me.

" Eren..."

I thought he would say ' I can't accept it' but... he kisses me.