"See you the way I do."

breaking your trust

Warning ⚠️: discussion regarding abortion.
Cheating.

Cordelia was in the greenhouse, practicing on some potions and spells. She was gathering all of her herbs and I Ingredients for it when you walked though the door beaming with love for her as she set everything on the counter, her blond hair cascading down her shoulders. it was summer so she wore a dress a little shorter than what she was used to. And you were not complaining.
You watched quietly as she mixed everything and sparkled rose petals and cinnamon on top. She let out a disappointed sight and her buried her face in her hands before sitting down in front of her work.
"Hey baby"
"Oh ! Y/n hey... wha..what are you doing here?"
"I just dropped by to see how you were doing, and also to spend some time with my beautiful girlfriend" she let out a snort at the second part of your sentence, looking down at her hands.
".. beautiful.."
"Yes Beautiful why ?" You moved closer to her but she rose to her feet and brushed past you on her way out.
"I'm sorry darling I need to finish something in my office"
Weird you thought, she wasn't usually that cold when it came to you, even if she was doing important work. And why did she look so stressed when you arrived.
You decided to go see what spell got her so upset. So you approached the table and you found a bunch of crystals, flowers and sigils, so you tried to look for her book of shadows, and it was opened on the table. You took a peek even though it was very personal, but then again you were worried about her.
Your eyes immediately found the title of her spell, you dropped the book and you ran out the door just as fast. "abortiōnem" was written in gold letters.
-oop fetus deletus-
Up the stairs you barged into her office but she wasn't there, so you looked in the kitchen, bathroom and finaly you pushed the door to your room open and found her siting
On the side of her tub about to take off her robe.
"So this is how you 'finish that important stuff in your office' cordelia"
She quickly looked over her shoulder at the sound of her full name. That was odd, you always called her sweet pet names, or Delia.
"Well...i...i"
"Don't even bother. I'm beginning you Would you please tell me that abortion spell isn't for you"
"WHAT ?" She pulled herself up and sat down on the bed.
"Answer me."
"I don't know what you are talking about"
"Just. answer. the god-damned. question. cordelia !"
"I..i"
"Please just tell me Madison fuck some stupid guy and got knocked up"
Her head bowed down and her hands started to shake.
"CORDELIA PLEASE"
"..I don't..don't know what to say"
"TELL me this isn't what I think it is"
"..i.."
"IS IT FOR YOU DELIA?"
"...yes...but I.."
"Okay. Then you've got some explaining to do. CAUSE LAST TIME I CHECKED PLASTIC DOESN'T GET YOU PREGNANT, AND I SURE AS HELL DONT THINK MY VAGINA CAN EITHER"
"I'm sorry babe..please.."
"Cordelia"
"I...i didn't know how to tell you"
"I swear. You better have a fucking magical explaination like the mother fucking Mary."
"I didn't know what I was doing..baby..what are you doing..stop please.."
You pulled out a suitcase and packed your closes in throwing everything roughly.
Tears streaming down her face she tried to stop you.
"I'M SORRY"
"Encore heureux !"
"What? Just please put that down, we can talk about it..please honey don't leave"
"Did it  work ?"
"No..I can't do it.."
"Well since you want to keep it have fun being a single mother. I'm sure it's going to workout just as fine as with your mom."
"..I. SERIOUSLY? BRINGING MY MOTHER INTO THIS NOW"
"Oh DON'T play the victim here. You gambled and you lost !"
"It didn't mean anything y/n please"
"So you think that makes it better ? I don't care if it was some meaningless sex  Delia !"
"I Know...babe I'm sorry...i...I was drunk and I didn't think straight"
"Was he drunk too?"
"Why ?"
"Because if he was it makes it worst for you"
"Why does it matter?"
"Did you want it ? Or did someone make you drink to have sex with you?"
"..We..we were both drunk, he didn't take advantage of me if that's what you're worried about" you took your stuff and started to leave the room but she blocked the door
"Well. That was exactly what I was worried about. Now move out of my way"
"Please y/n. We can talk about this"
"REALLY ? YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT YOU SCREWED SOMEONE ELSE ? OR THE FACT THAT YOU'RE KEEPING HIS BABY"
"I'm not...I don't..kn..I'm sorry. I've got no excuse...i was just..i didn't think I could be enough for you...and you always tell me you think I'm beautiful.. and I went out because you said I should go enjoy myself more..and I drank to much, and he was..just there. And I.. I've been hating myself ever since"
"That's not what I meant when I suggested you ENJOYED yourself more. I ment go out, have fun, come back to ME later"
"I know I just...he..said I was pretty. And I couldn't...my body...i was..."
"Did he fuck you good?"
"What ?"
"DID you get off on his dick ?"
"I'm.."
"Did HE grab your hair and screw you rough. Like I know you like it"
"..Babe.."
"Did you even cum around his penis huh?
Is that what's missing ? A reel dick.  So you can have the full experience ?!"
"No !"
"Then what ?! What did he do that I Didn't mm? Do I not tell you that you're pretty enough ?"
"Nothing ! You do.. i just.. you're my girlfriend  obviously you tell me that. It's just...I can't explain why I did that..i was just stupid and drunk. And I love you so much please don't forget that"
"I love you too Delia. BUT YOU. I can't even look at you right now. I need to cool off before i say or do anything stupid"
You left the room after setting back down you suitcase and picking up your keys.
"Where are you going?"
"That's none of your buisness right now"
"When will you be back ?"
"Later. Probably tonight "
"Are you breaking up with me ?"
"I don't...i don't know."
"Please don't... I love you y/n. You mean so much to me I can't lose you"
You went downstairs and took your car for a ride. Before going out on a small hike. You sat down by a Clif and watched the sky meet the lake. How the water sparkled with light, how the smallest fish could make the biggest echo on the surface.
You tried grounding yourself. Listening to nature and every message it could offer. Being a witch meant a lot of things but especially to you, it meant searching for your deepest parts for the right answer.
So you did just that. Remembered how you had met cordelia, how you both fell in love quickly, how she had trouble trusting you, letting you love her just the right way. How long it took for her to be intimate with you, let you see her body, everything she was insecure about. Her age, her power, her strength, her vulnerability. Everything that her mother used against her, you somehow embraced with light, your hands in her hair, fingers on her skin at any opportunity. Your love was strong, it was fierce, protective, it was a steady force of nature. A mountain, the winds and rains could pour down on it, but it would stand tall, grow with time, the sediments would stay put, they came from the fiery pits of earth. They'd laid under the ocean, but today, they were high above the chimney tops. You had your answer, jealousy was never a problem for you, if someone needed something else, there was always a reason, and you couldn't do anything to stop that. There was too much love, between Cordelia and you, too much tenderness, too much to lose, for a simple fling You knew it, sex and romance had not much in common.
You though about Delia, how lost she must be right now, she'd always wanted to be a mother. And she tried so hard with Hank but it failed. Now, now that she was finaly pregnant, it was probably so hard for her to make a decision. Give up her life dream, for you, the person she loved, and she was going to do it, she was willing to try, to have a chance together.
You drove back home, what a fool you'd been to think you could ever live without her, people do bad things sometimes, but it doesn't mean they are awful. After all people make mistakes, that is what makes them human.
You opened the front door and she was sitting at the table crying hard against myrtle, poor myrtle who tried to soothe her but nothing was working. Her breath was staggered, her hands were shaking.
"Wh..what...am i.. go..n..na do ...myrtle"
"Shh.. firstly you need to calm down dear. I'm sure y/n will come back shortly"
"I..i messed up...i messed up really bad...I'm such a screw up...Fiona was right i don't belong here...i don't belong anywhere...I'm hopeless..worthless"

"No."
She looked up quickly
"Y/n ?" Her cries quieten but her body and breath shook even harder.
"Your mother isn't right"
"I'm going to let you two sort this out,"
Myrtle said as she got up and left.
"Y/n.. I'm sor.." you went up to her, and held her in your arms before she would get herself even more worked up
"Shh I know.
Please calm down Delia"
"I'm...I can't ..."
"I'm not mad anymore"
"What ?"
"You heard me"
"..how... why ? I messed up..i.."
"Yes you did, i trusted you and you betrayed that trust, you slept with someone else. But it's done, and there's nothing we can do about it. But our relationship and my ego are stronger than this. And it's not some cisgender straight dumbass who fucks drunken girls who will break us up"
"I.."
"I'm not done. I'm still not happy about it. It'll take me time to forgive you. But fuck it I love you Delia. I'm not loosing you over this"
She pulled away slightly and kissed you hard, hands running over your body.
"Now you still need to figure out what you want to do with this"
You said as you poked her belly.
"I..I'm sorry"
" I get it. It's hard for you, you've always tried to have a child, and now you're afraid that it's your last chance"
"..yeah"
"Whatever you do I'll be right here. But you need to figure things out"
"yes...I love you so much y/n I'm so sorry"
"I know. Baby.. I know"

A/n:
Hey everyone, i don't know where I'm going with this. Don't worry I'm not leaving this here. But I'd like to know what would you like Cordelia to do ?