Transitions [SamandColby Fic]

Chapter 10

"You gonna be okay with this?" Colby asked quietly.

They were parked together outside Aja's house.  Sam had driven, of course.  Neither of them wanted Colby driving home after what they both knew would be an intense night.  Sam's arms were crossed over his chest, staring at the door.  He took a deep breath, letting it out slowly.  "Yeah.  I'll be fine."  He tried to smile at Colby. 

Colby didn't look like he believed him.  "We can still leave," Colby said softly, but the look on his face told Sam very clearly that he really didn't want to have to do that. 

But Sam shook his head.  "No, no you can't.  You've been planning and negotiating this for months, right?"  Colby nodded.  "So I'm not going to mess that up.  I really..." He hesitated for a moment, "I think I'll be okay, once I see you space.  That tends to happen." 

Colby looked at him carefully, before nodding.  "Okay..." He said, looking at the dashboard as he worked his lips, looking like he was trying to think of words.  Sam wasn't disappointed.  "So uh... I told Brennen this but uh... So I'm not going to be able to talk, while they're in, obviously..." He gestured with his hand, "And uh... I'm gonna be spaced as fuck so..." He crossed his arms.  "This is me, while I'm still sober, kinda giving you blanket permission for anything you wanna do tonight."

Sam felt his eyes widen.  "I'm sorry, what?"

Colby's cheeks were red, and there was a nervous smile on his lips as he continued.  "I mean, obviously we've discussed hard limits and shit but like... the stuff that I'm okay with you doing, and you know what that is... you can do any of that, while I'm spaced later.  I'm okay with it." 

"I uh..." Yeah, that was a little overwhelming.  Because while he knew that Colby trusted him unconditionally from the years of their friendship it was still a little weird to know that all that unconditional trust extended to kink as well.  "Okay.  But you'll still stop me if you really don't want to do something?"

Colby furrowed his eyebrows.  Sam knew this was still a point of contention between them, because Colby was more than okay with him doing anything, even if Colby didn't exactly like it just because he was following orders, and Sam wanted to know what those things were so he could stop.  Sam know it had to do with the power exchange thing for Colby, but it was something that Sam still wasn't totally comfortable with. 

"I'll do my best to stop anything I really don't like," Colby answered honestly, which Sam appreciated, even if he didn't like the caveats that left open. 

"Okay..." Sam swallowed, nodding.  "I can work with that."  He looked at the door again.  "You ready?"

And that nervous but excited grin was back on Colby's face.  "Oh yeah," He answered.  "Let's do it."  And they climbed out of the car together to go meet Brennan, Aja, and Kelly, Aja's doctor friend. 

When they got inside, everything kinda passed in a blur.  There were introductions, and some small talk, but it seemed like no time at all before Colby and Kelly were talking about their scene, and getting set up for it.  Sam definitely felt a little alarmed when he realized that it was time. 

"No allergies to nylon or rubbing alcohol?"  Kelly asked, spreading out her tools on the tray.

"Nope," Colby confirmed, finally looking nervous now that the time had actually come.  The doctor inspected her tools one more time before turning her attention back to Colby.  He was laid out on a portable massage table, shirt off, cracking his knuckles and casting eyes at the tray.  Sam had watched the set up.  Everything had been laid out just so.  Sam was sure she did this all the time, both at work and for play.