Careless whisper

where am I

Trying to continue in this wretched place, is like running into war without any gear. Everyday that passes me by I feel this place in me, like apart of me. Where are you, where am I? To be honest i dont even know myself. One day I was in you arms and the other I was here. Am I dead, am i alive? I really dont know. I see no bright light, I hear no Angel's. Am I in hell? Has god really punished me for my sins? Is this my faith now?

This place, it's dark, lonely, I hate it here. Will i ever be able to leave? What happened to me, if I am dead how did I die? The last thing I remember is being with you. No it cant be, I refuse to believe. But what if, no if, I hate this taught. You have no reason to kill me so why would you. You treated me so good on my so called last day. So I see no reason for you to kill the one you love.

I have to take my mind off of this, save my energy. I dont know when I have to use it. I am scared, I cry myself to sleep, you are not here with me. There is nothing to do in this place you know. Besides to run from the monsters that inhabit this immortal plane. I've been running from day one. And I am tired, to scared to continue, mentally and physically.

I taught these creatures were friendly at first, I even tried to approach one, but if I tell you you wont believe, the things they did to me. I am even afraid to say. Should I?  Should I tell you, I have nothing to loose, this place already took it all. My love I really miss you, and words cant say how much I do. I talk to you everyday, hoping that you can here me. This gives me comfort, me getting to talk, to seek solace in you, it's like stress being relieved off my shoulders. But as promised I shall tell you what I went through.

These creatures were first made known to me on my first day. They looked harmless, even friendly, but looks can be deceiving. I approached one and tried to see what it was like, trying to get a clearer view of it. Oh the horror, it caught glimpse of me approaching and instead of running away, it came charging at me. A half bread between, with ox legs and horns sharp and pointy, it had the torsos of a man, chiseled abs and all. But most of all is what it had infront, a dick the size of my hand. It charges me and soon caught up to me. It braces me against the ground and ripped my cloths from my body. I could feel it getting harder in me. I can hear it getting more excited. I was out of breath it was so deep in me I couldn't move.

I had no where to run no where to go, and most  horrifying of all was the sight of three of these creatures approaching me.i knew I was done for. They would rip me apart surely. I felt them all taking turns, I was handled like a piece of luggage. I passed out multiple times, each time waking up back to them pounding the life out of me. I passed out again, thinking I could have never awoke again, but I did.i felt sore. Couldn't move, my stomach paining. I got myself up and slowly made my way to a lake where I cleaned myself off. I felt like driving away with the water, but I knew I had to survive, for you.

I've been on the run ever since, never wanting that experience to reoccur, but I fear it might. But I will continue to run, far. Hoping that I can escape this place. But that's all for now my love, I have said my part, and eased my mind, for tomorrow is another day, another day of running.