Hello aging my love, I know I've been away for a while, and I know you might be mad, or worried. That all depends on if your hearing this or not, but I have hope. I dont know anymore, I just feel tired, I feel fed up, I font want to continue. I am running out of images of you and I dont want that to happen. You are the fuel that makes me go on.
I am having nightmares. Not of this place but of her you know. The girl that died in her appartment. I still doubt what I did. But recently I have starter to regret what I did. I dont know if that's a good or bad thing. I just that everytime I close my eyes and finally take a breath of relief, she is there. Its like she haunts me, o dont blame her.
Anyways, in other news I finally stood up to one of those monsters. And the weirdest thing happened. I was angry, sleepy, and tired of running, so I went up to one and stabbed it in the back. It disappeared, no body, no blood, no nothing. I dont even know where I got the dagger from. I just zoned out before i killed it. I feel the way I felt when I was killing that girl. But in this incident, there was no reason, no cause.
I dont know what's going on, it's like I have powers, like a dream, that I am now learning to control. If this is a dream shouldn't I be able to wake up, shouldn't i be able to snap out of it. And if so how long am I dreaming for. But that's a long shot, maybe its not even a dream, maybe I am just dead and this is hell.
Well hell or heaven, I dont care as long as have you in my heart. I miss you, I dont know how much I can say. I miss the way we talked, and laughter. I missed the way you use to holde me in your arms when I cried. Do you remember the time my dog died, oh how I cried bitter tears, but you were there. What about the time we took a trip up to mount toko, that place was magical. Now thing back at it you were always there for me, and I appreciate that. But like all stories my love this shall now come to an end. That's all I have to say for now love. Until next time. Love valentina.
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Careless whisper
RomanceAll together I find myself trapped, reliving the past, voices, thoughts, memories, I dont even know anymore, everything is so blurry, cant even tell what's real or not anymore.
