The Dream Of A Life Time Ian And Nina

Chapter 32 grief and pain

Recap I keep crying into his now dead body . ( from the previous day) Nina: I lay there my head on his now very cold lifeless body I couldn't move everything seemed completely numb to me I felt like I had no feeling at all , Paul: I drove down to the scene wondering what all the commotion is about since I could here it all the way from my house I get out of my car shutting the door then I walk over to a police man excuse me officer what's happening I question, police man: oh sorry sir I know it must be loud but some girl lost her husband today a man shot him 3 times , he's dead Paul: uh what are their names I say police man: oh the mans name was Ian somerhalder and the woman is alright her name is Paul: thanks that's all I need to know Uh can I see her she's my friend Nina is the girl at the site officer: sure go on in Paul; thanks I say I walk through the crowd , and once I see Nina it breaks my heart she's still clinging onto Ian's dead body and she won't let go I than walk over to her kneeling down Nina: tears fall down my face still as I look at him I hold onto his hand Paul; Nina it's me Paul please hold onto me , that's not Ian he's gone I say softly Nina: I let go of Ian's hand and hold onto Paul crying into him Paul: I'm so sorry Nina I say with a shaky voice Nina: that only makes me cry harder when I hear his apology for my loss I just hug him tightly Paul: tears fall down my face and I just hug her tighter . ( couple weeks later ) Nina; I sit in my room wearing one of Ian's shirts it's wrapped around me and my face is stained with tears I just can't do this anymore I think In my head I can't I say , to myself so I wipe my tears away and walk over to my door opening it guys I call for Grayson and Lilly they come walking into my room slowly sad looks on their faces Lilly: yes mom I say looking at her Nina: I'm gonna take a bath ok I wanted y'all to know that so you don't freak out thinking I'm gone Grayson: ok we'll be in our rooms Nina; I know you will baby I smile kissing them on both their heads go on I say Lilly: mom when's dad coming back Nina: that question had me frozen and tears come to my eyes but I choke them back " I don't know baby " he won't be back for a very long time I say smiling sadly now go on do you're school work Lilly; ok let's go Grayson and we leave Nina: I shut my door behind me , locking it I go over to my dresser getting some pills out and water I than walk to the bathroom filling the tub up with water after that's done I get in than I take the whole bottle of pills swallowing them all with water , then I close my eyes and lay back against the tub . Paul's POV: I knock on the door it's takes a minute but I hear foot steps Lilly: I open the door seeing uncle Paul Paul: hey sweetie I say smiling Lilly: uncle Paul I say smiling and I hug him Paul: after our hug I pull away hey honey where's you're mom Lilly: she's in the bathroom taking a bath Paul: oh do you know when she'll be out Lilly: I don't know Paul: but than I look at my watch it reads 8:21 pm wait Lilly how long has you're mom been in the bathroom for Lilly: I don't know maybe she got in at like 3 Paul: oh my fucking god I say here you stay here I say panicked and I run upstairs her bedroom door is locked so I run into it and it bursts open than I open her bathroom door and I see her she's passed out , a pill bottle is in her hand oh my god I say Nina I scream I run to her pulling her cold body out of the bath tub i than wrap her in a towel Nina I scream giving her CPR please I say please god I say as I keep giving her CPR , than I dial 911 after I do that I stay with her until they get here .