I Am Norma Jeane

Who am i?

I spent most of my childhood and teenage years believing various celebrities were my father. My mother only came so often to visit to then fully stopping, giving me a double whammy of "identity crisis."

I would sit in the movie theatre not too far from my fosters house and would spend all day every day sitting there watching movies play and play until it was time for the movie theatre to close. I would walk on home wondering who Clark Gable was and if he was my father. Why I thought he was my father? well probably because my mom did happen to mingle with celebrities I mean she did work for Hollywood. She would cut the tapes of the pictures we see today on the silver screen and once told me she would mingle with them. So in order to cope, in order to put a face and name to my father, Clark was the only man I put to him. I mean it was better than having an anonymous man lingering in your life.

The Graumans Chinese Theatre was more of a home to me than any family. It was my escape where I could go play make belief without being told what to do, what to say, how to act when to mingle and so on. The only place that gave me freedom to run wild without much consequence. The only place that ever got me to sit still, and to listen. The only place that allowed me to dream and sit in my head writing my future as I stared at the screen.
I would stick my feet in the display of the stars foot prints and often get disappointed that my foot didn't fit. I remember believing that because my feet didn't match with theirs that my dreams wouldn't come true, quite silly I know, but as a kid you believe just about anything you say to yourself.

Anything is possible, almost anyways.

Stayed tuned for part 3-4 tonight.☺️