The peace within hatred

True Love is this...:10

Tsukishimas P.O.V

it was around 2:00 p.m now and kageyama had fallen asleep during are movie. He had his head rested on my chest and we layer across the couch, he was on top of me as I said before with his head on my chest and arms rapped around my neck area. I held his waist with my arms wrapped around them and my head on a pillow to support my neck. I didn't dare move a muscle to let the sweet king rest a bit longer as well as closing my own eyes slightly. I had already slept and woke up about 35 minutes ago so I wasn't tired anymore.soon enough though the king woke from his sleep and cuddled into a ball on top of me.

I sat up as I noticed him wrap his legs around my waist, then I noticed it- I WAS INTERNALLY SCREAMING AS I REALIZED HE WAS SITTING ON MY LAP!!! He hugged me and then like a drunk person kissed my cheek- "k..kageyama?!" "What Tsukipoo" ... AHHHHHHH OMG HES SO CUTE- "ummm I- your..."
"I know I'm sitting on your lap but I refuse to move." 'B..BUT WHY?!?!" I was completely out of my shit now I was actually yelling- "becauuuuse I need to ask ya somethingggggssssss" "what now king?" "Can you pretty please with 2 cherrys on top be my boyfriend?..." "I... Yes kageyama I thought you would never ask... MOSTLY CAUSE I WANTED TO ASK YOU!!!"

I tackled kageyama onto the couch and started tickling him till he cried, "BAHAHAHAHAHAHAH TSU.TSUKISHIMA STOP IT HAHAHAHAHAHA" his laugh was beautiful and so was he so without thinking I tried to kiss him but stopped. I remembered what Hinata had done and slowly back off. I looked and kageyama and realized he was crying a little bit. I would hug him but now wasn't a good time... Then instead he hugged me?... "wha..what?" I questioned I was so confused?!? "I know I'm scared of other people touching me but your ok... I feel safe around you..." he smiled at me softly I smiled back at him then he said something more... "It makes me sad knowing that you feel the need to stop touching me and and I'm sorry you felt the need to stop... I trust you with my life and I hope you understand it's ok for you to hug and kiss me! I don't know when I'll be ready for something more because it terrifies me to think about such unbearable things anymore... but I trust you won't go that far without my permission and will wait for me to be ready..."

A tear shed from his eye in that moment so I placed a soft kiss on his lips and he kissed me back... I wanted to make him feel loved and know that being with someone wasn't torcher and could be an amazingly good thing... we pulled back but only for a moment as kageyama threw himself at me after catching his breath. "Hey kageyama..." "yes Tsuki?"
" is it if I.. maybe" "yes Tsukishima I trust you.." I placed my head on his shoulder and slowly sucked at his neck til I found his soft spot, from there I just gave him a hickey or two or three- and we made out for a little while👋😶✨. "Thank you Tsukishima..." "I love you kags" and then we fell asleep together on the couch with some random show called like coco melon or something playing in the background-