The peace within hatred

Tsuki please help me...:5

Kageyama POV.
It's been a month since Hinata started raping me. I have given up on someone saving me. I know that I'm a worthless toy he likes to play with for fun and that everyone hates me. I go to practice everyday trying to act as normal as possible. Because if I don't when me and Hinata go to his house after he whips we with a belt on my back. I started cutting myself after the first 3 times he did this to me. It helped me cope with my situation. 2 days ago Hinata went so hard on me I had to stay home the next day. I felt depressed and angry I just wanted to die.

Today at morning practice diachi said we weren't aloud to wear are jackets unless me got really cold since we were about to do a really intense work out. But since I couldn't take it off without them seeing my cuts I knew I was gonna over heat. "Kageyama thats not your team jacket I'm sorry but your going to have to take it off the rules are no wearing jackets that aren't the teams while practicing" Diachi sounded stern. "I..I can't take it off sorry..." I stuttered. "Kageyama what's wrong? It's just a jacket now you need to take it off or I will for you." I refused shaking my head he got closer to me. I backed up really quick when he put his hand near me. "Wo kageyama what's wrong I'm just helping you take it off?" I started crying slowly without noticing he stared at me in shock. "P..please don't touch me!" "Kageyama is everything alright?" He reached a hand out to grab mine seeing that I had tripped over my feet and fell. I backed up quickly and rolled into a ball and started crying. The team ran over I heard voices asking if I was ok. Hinata reached towards me and grabbed my wrist before I could notice I flinched. And screamed in pain pushing his hands off me. "DON'T TOUCH ME PLEASE IM SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN TO PLEASE DON'T HURT ME!!!" Everyone stared in shock. Then I felt someone sit next to me. It was tsukishima. I tried back away crying even more now. He grabbed me and rolled up my sleeves. Everyone stared at me with a concerned look now, and I knew exactly why. "DAMN IT KAGEYAMA WTF WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!!!" Hinata voice echoed threw the gym. I stared at me and he looked at me with and angry look because he knew exactly why. Next thing I know everyone's backing away from me and giving me some space, but before tsukishima could I grabbed him and hugged him crying into his shirt.

Kageyama... why would you do this to yourself! "I guess I should tell you guess why I've been so horrible at volley ball lately anyways..." Hinata looked at me ready to beat me til I bleed. Tsukishima noticed and stared back. Hinata stopped and sat there waiting for me to expose the truth, but instead I said this. " I've just been very depressed lately and I'm not sure why I just feel worthless and feel like you all hate me..." Hinata had a light smile on his face as the others comforted me. Everyone continued practice but tsukishima covered my wounds with water to wash them then rapped then in band aids. After practice I went over to Hinata house like usual he whipped me with one of his belts then proceeded to rape me when he was done. Aftter that I went home and ate took a shower and went to bed it was finically the weekend.

On Saturday we had are normal weekend practice then, but today instead of normal practice we were going to swim laps in the school pool. I was going to be exposed with my hickeya and slash Maria's and bruises along with my cuts from yesterday. This was going to be the practice all was exposed about what has been happening to me in my life and I was ready to get hated on by my friends that soon we call me there enemies.