It's Always Been You

Knowing your true heart through the light of love

After returning to my house the first thing I did was take a shower and had my dinner, because I was feeling strange and a bit scared to know the truth. 

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I opened the chain and took out the dairy. It was old and lil bit dirty, but to me it was precious. I could hear my own heartbeat when I opened the diary. It looked so cute just like him. An exact representation of nong Pharm. With feather, color, bids and pics it was looking bright and colorful, even if the pages were dusty. I started reading and felt like nong was talking just in front of me.

So many stories, events, I was feeling excited to know my "noo" once again. Indeed he was a cheerful mouse, a ball of sunshine. Everything was good, until I read at the page of the event of fresher’s party….

Date: xx

“When I was searching for sushi(the stray puppy) to feed him some snacks.. I saw the back of a big figure, who was holding him and feeding him biscuits. 

When he turned.. My heart stopped. I saw a sharp pair of eyes. They were dreamy. And deep. I saw a whole universe of mine in there. And the smile with a calm face. I felt like a magnet. He was attracting me towards him with all my existence. I wanted to move, but felt like my legs got stuck on the ground…..”

I stopped and held the diary on my chest. Nong Pharm….. Was talking about… … 

NO! NO it cannot be…….it cannot be like this..

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I Opened the diary and went over pages to pages just to check if it is the fact that I was thinking.. 

Date: xx

“Today I saw him again.. I dunno why everyone calls him a fierce person, he is really sweet, always feeds the stray animals. Very good with his manner. Always takes good care of his friends and juniors. Moreover, he is so talented with study and sports. Teachers also love him. I wish I could be his nong….”

Date: xx

“Oh God! Why am I being like this.. whenever I see him I feel like running to him and hug him tightly. Ai’Pharm! you shameless boy! How can you think like that about your senior huh?! What if he finds out about me……I will die with shyness.. aghhhhhhh..”

Date: xx

“Oh no! His best friend caught me today while I was staring at him! He fell asleep at the library desk. I was so tempted to take a snap of him. What should I do now? Did he find out? Did his best friend already tell him……..?”

Date: xx

“I …….. I met him today.. I wanted to give him his favourite dessert.. but .. but he fainted. I wanted to scold him for not taking good care of his health. But, I don’t have any right to do so.. I am feeling very sad. He is so handsome even when he fainted in front of me.. 

Gosh..you perv Pharm! Have some shame can you? He was sick..and u were thinking all the nasty things? 

He is so kind. He complimented me for the dessert although I know it was tasteless and plain. Sometimes I get confused which I like more, his kindness or his handsomeness…….lol.  hehehehhe….”

At this point I wanted to drink some water. But I couldn’t move and continued to read the diary..

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Date: xx

“Omg omg omggggggg! He touched me!!! nooooo! He held me? for like 30 sec? or more? Am I even alive or not? It was sooooooo romantic. He held me by my waist. I felt current running through my body! Those eyes were sucking my soul.. I.. I was about to kiss…..