2017
Chandlers POV
"FUCK THIS SHIT" I yell
"ALL I WANTED WAS TO LOVE YOU BUT YOUR HERE FUCKING THIS GUY" I yell "chan" Lauren says
"No get the FUCK out" I say
"But chan" she says
"No get the fuck out now" I say
"Fuck you" she says
I watch her turn around and grab her keys while she walks out the door
She slams the door
I walk towards the door to lock it
"Fuck you..fuck you fuck you" I say in a shakey voice
I punch the door hard and take a step back
Fuck that hurt
I can feel tears roll down my cheeks
She..she just fucking cheated on me..why why is she fucking like this
I lean against the nearest wall and wrap my arms together
"Fuck yo-you" I whisper
I was stupid to believe that she actually loved me back..I thought that she was the one... I don't know anymore I don't know what to do...
Why dose everyone leave me...is there something wrong with me? What the fucks wrong with me why do I bother living why do I bother to do anything
I stand up and wipe the tears of my face I look over at the island and see a knife..
Maybe this will take away my pain
I let go of my arms and walk towards the island I pick up the knife and pull down my hoodie sleeve
I look at my arm with scars I look at my other arm and slowly pull down the sleeve also there's no Mark's..cuts there is no shit there
I grab the knife with my other hand and put it against my skin
I slowly start pushing hard and slitting my lower wrist
"Fuckkk" I groan
I pull it out quick and drop it on the floor
I start crying harder
"Fuck fuck fuck" I whisper in pain
Doing that...kinda made me feel better just replacing a pain with another
I look down at the floor and see the bloody knife I slowly turn my head towards my arm
I looked at my blood trail down my arm
(3 months later)
Chris's POV
"Have you talked to Chandler recently?" Jimmy asks while he sets up a camera "no I haven't" I say
"Do you mind checking up on him?" He asks "uh..yea il go and check up on him" I say
I knew Chandler for a while...not that long he started being in videos earlier this year but he really hasn't showed up the past 3 months
"Also can you ask him if he wants to film?" Jimmy asks
"Yea sure il ask him..il leave now"
I say "oh ok" he says
I scratch my head and look around
"See you" I say
Jimmy smiles at me
I take a step back and turn around
I slowly start walking towards the door
I open the glass door and walk out
(Time skip)
I pull up to Chandlers apartment complex and park in front of a weirdly shaped Bush
"Heh" I sight
I open the car door and step out
I get fully out and shut the door
I lock my car and look up at the building
He lives on the second floor I believe
I forgot the number but I'm sure it will come back to me
I walk down the sidewalk to get to the stairs
I walk up them and look down the hallway of apartments
I believe he lives in 69?
I walk up to the door and stand there awkwardly I knock on the door
For some reason I was expecting it to open quickly but there was no answer
I stand there for a minute and knock again but there was no answer
I look at the door and reach in my pocket for my phone I take it out and click on messages
I scroll down to Chandler and look at some messages
Chan: lol
Me: hey
Me: hello
Me: you good? Everything ok??
Me: hii
Read
I start typing and look up at his door while standing there
Me: hey can you open your door
I turn off my phone and hold it in my hand
(5 minutes later)
I've been standing here for a while
I'm kinda getting worried something probably happened..why isn't he answering me i knocked alot but he didn't answer he could be dead..
"Shit" I say to myself
"Dont I have an extra key" I add on
I grab my car keys and look at the other ones I put them in t he door one by one but they didn't work until the last one
I unlocked the top and started to unlock the bottom
I slowly opened the door and walk in
It was dark inside the windows where closed
It was kinda messy...it smelt like alcohol
I close the door and look around
I walk towards the couch and see Chandler sleeping
"Chandler?" I say
I place my hand on his shoulder and shake him
"Wake up" I say while i continue shaking him
I watch his eyes open and look at me for a few seconds
"W-what the fuck" he says
He sits up and stands up really quickly
"Get out" he says
He takes a step towards me
I hear a bottle break
"Aw shit" Chandler says
He falls on the couch and holds his foot
I look down and see a wine bottle broken
"Are you ok" I ask
"Just..just get out" he says frustrated
"No I wont" I say
I sit down and pull his foot up I set it on my knee and look at it
I look down at the floor and see the wine glass again
"Where did you even get that..your not even old enough to buy alcohol"
I say "where's Lauren" I add on
He looks up at me and sighs
"She..she cheated on me" he says while is voice breaks
"I-im..I'm sorry" I say
"Every one leaves me" he says
"No that's not true" i say
He shakes his head on moves closer to me I was about to pull him in for a hug but I felt something wet on his arm I pull my hand back and look
It was dark but I couldn't really tell what it was
I look up at Chandler but he looked kinda nervous
"What's wrong?" I ask
"N-nothing" he says
"Is this blood" I ask
"I don't know" he says
"Oh.." I say
"Do you want me to go now?" I ask
He looks at me and looks back at his arm he shakes his head
"No..can you..can you stay" he says in a shakey voice "sure.." I say
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This was so bad-
Idk what to put but this sucks so much
