Chris's POV
"Hey" I say opening the door to the warehouse
"Hey chris" jimmy says while turning around "Chandlerrr" jimmy adds on
"How are you?" Jimmy asks
"Im..ok?" Chandler says
"Uh guys il be back later ok" I say
I look over at Chandler and he nods
"Ok see ya" jimmy says
I turn around and head towards the doors I walk out and unlock my door with my keys
(1 hour later)
I got home so I can see katie
My wife..we bearly got married a few months ago..shes my bestfriend shes my everything I love her so much I just cant explain it
"Hey" I say opening the door
"Hii" katie says turning around
She walks up to me a kisses me
"What are you doing?" I ask while wrapping my arm around her
"Oh packing" she says
"Wait your leaving already?" I ask
"Yea" she said
"I thought it was next week" I say
"No its today" she says
I pull her close and kiss her head
"How long are you gonna be gone again?" I ask
"I think 3 months?" She says
"Really?" I say
"Damn" I add on
"It will go by quick I promise you" she says "ok" I say
I pull her in for another kiss and walk away from her
To see my dog
"What you doing bud" I say in an excited voice
He walks up to me and try's to lick my face
I pet him and stand up
"Want something to eat?" I ask katie
"Uh...yea your gonna make something?" She asks
"Uh no il go out somewhere" I say
"Actually..no sorry my plane comes here in 30 minutes" she says
"Oh ok" I say
I stand there and stare at her
"Well i should get going" she says closing a suitcase
"Wait" I say
I walk up to her and kiss her
"I love you..call me when you land" I say "ok I will" she says
I smile at her
"Bye" she says
She grabs her stuff and walks out
I wanted more time with her but...il see her again
I was about to sit down but my phone started going off
I grab it and see Chandler was texting me
Chan: I dont really wanna stay here
Chan: can you come back?
Me: yea why?
I reply and put it away
Well I guess ima go back
(1 hour later)
I get back and see Chandler waiting outside
I pull up and he walks towards my car
He gets in and closes the door
"What's wrong?" I ask
"Nothing I dont wanna talk about it" he says
I can tell something was wrong but I'm not gonna question it because he doesn't want to talk about it
"Oh ok" I say
(Hours later)
I ended up staying over at Chandlers again
I brought my dog and stuff
Chandler seems sad but every time I talk to him he gives me a smile
A smile that I really like
A smile that's soft and..beautiful
Chandler looks beautiful I dont get how hes single its weird... like he can get all the girls.. or guys or whatever he likes
"I'm gonna head to bed" Chandler sighs "oh so early?" I say turning to him
"Yea I'm just not feeling good" he says
"Oh" I say
"Well..want me to sleep with you again?" I ask
"I dont really care.. go ahead" he says
He walks away and I hear the door shut
What's wrong with him?
I dont know..
I hope it's not me...
"Chandler.." I sigh
I put my head back and run my hands through my hair
"Fuckkk" I groan
I should really get ready to sleep
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Chandlers POV
I was half asleep until I hear the door open I sit up and look at Chris standing there
He walks towards the bed
I feel him get in bed with me
"Chandler" chris says
I roll over to see what he wants
"I'm sorry if I did something wrong" he says
"You didn't...its fine" I say he puts his hand on my shoulder and looks at me in the dark
I move a little closer tell we where face to face
He was looking at me and I was looking at him..kate is lucky to have him hes..hes so caring and thoughtful..that's what makes me love him..I love him..im..I'm in love with him..that's not right tho..I shouldn't think like this..its like I'm suddenly gay for him he just..helped me so much he cares for me..like no one else did in my life...I just..I'm in love with him...and I hate it
I feel chris put his hand on my waist..witch made me react
I leaned in and kissed him..it wasn't a quick one it was kinda a long one
I pull my head back and realised what I did...fuck shit..I didn't mean that..now..now..I didn't mean too...
"I- I'm sorry I'm sorry" I say in a panic
I was about to turn over but he put his hand on my cheek he runs his fingers down my jaw and rubs my cheek he pulled me in for another..a longer one then the last one
It felt sweeter it felt good
He pulls back quickly and looks at me
He looks down and sighs
I know he regretted that..its all my fault tho...is..is he gonna leave me now just like everyone else...?
I watch him roll over so I will be facing his back...
"I-im sorry" I say
"Chandler" chris sighs
"I'm just so sorry..sorry" I say while my voice breaks
"SHUT THE FUCK UP" he says angrily and in a confused way
"Just shut up" he adds
I move away from him and look at his back
I was trying not to cry...crying is the only thing I fucking do..
My eyes where watery I felt tears roll down my cheeks I heard my sniffles and gasps for air...
I spent the rest of the night staring at chris...
I'm stupid...I'm so fucking stupid..I'm dumb I'm annoying no one fucking wants me why am I like this? Why..why?
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Fuck I hate this chapter I should restart it😭
