For The Dollars Or The Love

No Turning Back

"Mommy, where's daddy?" Symphony asked as I drove to her school. Since Chris is busy I'm driving my own car today.

"Daddy has work to do, so he couldn't take you to school today." I watched her face fall in the rearview mirror. She's really fallen in love with having a father. After dropping her off it's time I head to school. Parking in the student parking lot I go straight in the building to my locker. Kylin stands against the locker next to mines.

"I know Chris was at your house last week." She said with not an ounce of happiness in her voice.

"O....k." I continue grabbing the needed things out of my locker. I've never held a conversation with this girl, now she wants to be in my face over a guy.

"Your point is?" I spoke in a slow tone.

"How's it feel knowing he was all up in me before he got to you." I guess I was supposed to be mad about this, but Chris isn't mines so I really don't care.

"I don't feel anything Kylin, I knew he was with a girl before he came over. I didn't call him over for anything sexual, it's not like that with us. So the fact that you pointed out that he was, "all up in you" as you so bluntly put it. Means nothing to me." Done with my statement, this conversation, and getting stuff from my locker I shut the metal door, and walked away. I sit in my class jotting down my work ignoring the constant folded pieces of paper that keep landing on my desk. Since I've been back Draylon has been trying to get my attention, have I giving it to him? Nope! I'm good on that. I miss Chris, yeah I miss the Lemonhead. Even though we're not together we're working on something. He's giving me time to get my feelings for him completely in order. My phone vibrates against my thigh in my pocket, I sneak my phone out of it. I smile because it's a text from Chris. I opened it, and tried not to giggle as I stared at a picture of him and Symphony. They were both in the camera with their tongues out.

Me: What is my child doing out of school?

Lemonhead: I don't know about your child, but our child had a tummy ache so they called me.

Me: Aww mommy's poor baby, give her a kiss for me?

Lemonhead: Only if daddy gets a kiss first.

Me: You get nothing cause you got my baby sick giving her all that candy.

Lemonhead: So daddy gets none of mommy's love?

I put my phone up before I laughed at this boys foolishness. I feel bad that I'm not there with Symphy. I always take care of her when she has a tummy ache. But I'm sure Chris is taking care of her, I just want the day to end so I can get to my baby. Between breaks of class I call Chris to check on Symphy. I'm calling right now.

"Mia." He answers aggravated, well damn.

"Excuse me for wanting to check on my child."

"Babe you've been checking on her all day. She's good." He hung up after that, wait til I get home. Gone hang up in my face. Hearing the last bell of the day ring I speed to my car telling Jamal, and Alexis why I can't hang with them today. I rush up the stairs to my apartment. I practically run to my room, but my steps halt when I see the sight on my bed. Symphony has her little arms wrapped around Chris' big one with her head on his chest. The way Chris had her in his arms just looked like he'd protect her from her worst nightmare. I walked to the bed, and tapped him to wake him up.

"Hey babe." He spoke rubbing the sleep out of his eye. Damn why is his voice so sexy when he wakes up?

"Hey, how long has she been sleep?"

"Since your last call. C'mere." He gestured to me. I sat next to his still lying body. He pulled me down to lay with them.

"Now I got both my girls with me." He smirked licking his lips. I stat watching him attend to Symphy every time she stirred in her sleep. He was so gentle with her. She asked if he'd take her to her room, he hoisted her still sleeping form carefully on his hip. I love watching him take care of her. He came back and sat next to me.

"Well her fevers down now, she should sleep without her stomach bothering her tonight." I just watched as he talked.

"Why you staring at me, I got something on my face." I laughed shaking my head. I can't help but think about the what ifs.

"Then stop being a creep." He joked staring back at me. Should I? I don't know. If I do this I can't take it back, if we do this all cards are down. To hell with it, I pull his collar collapsing my lips with his. He didn't ask questions, he lay me down kissing me securing his arms around my waist. He pulled away both of us breathing heavily.

"I don't understand, you said..."

"I know what I said, and I know what I feel." He looked confused at my words.

"So what's happening?"

"I know that you're not going anywhere, and I know that you're not him, I know you love that little girl in that room. I know you have love for me. Chris I don't wanna be scared to let you in anymore." He kissed my lips.

"Then don't be, give in. Let me show you what love is really like. We take this as slow as you want okay?" I nodded.

"Okay, as slow as I want?"

"As slow as you want baby." I guess there's not turning back now. I'm giving in to what I hope is a good choice.