Right now I'm sitting here
Thinking,
about you
about my sins
about your words
about my reactions.
I think about us.
I think about what
I could have done better
I could have changed
or said differently.
What I could have done
to save you.
I failed.
I've never been hit worse.
I did this to you.
I made you like this.
This lifeless
this cold
this unbelieving.
It's all my fault.
My mistakes made you that.
Every one deserves a second chance.
But you,
aren't in a state to give me one.
Everyone deserves joy,
but it's false,
people like me,
they don't.
Those who hurt believers,
those who hurt lovers,
they don't.
What I have done,
whatever I said,
It is unforgettable,
Unforgivable.
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Soooooooooooooo, that was.... that? Idk what I'm saying or writing and I'm dying, mentally and emotionally. It isn't long before I would only have a void where is my heart is supposed to be. I'll lose all my emotions. I, already, am only a shell of what I used to be. It isn't long before that would wither away as well...
Ily<3
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A poems book
PoetryA compilation of original poems written by me. Friends And ditching Loads of bitching. Running Sulking Isolating. These are my emotions Inside Out I've given a taste Of how I sound. - Akshitanush
