Where it began

The beginning of hell

Samuel gets up very confused and silence covers the room like a heavy shadow. I feel tears surfacing and guilt, but I can't be this weak not in front of him. I kick him out of my house and sob. I try not to make ugly faces when I cry because society has brainwashed me to think that I must look perfect at everything even crying.

School the next morning is easy going and smooth until I see Samuel. He weaves his way through the halls to get to me, but I'm too embarrassed to face him. I turn a corner, but it's a dead end except a bathroom. Into the bathroom I go and into the stall I crouch.

Someone walks in and I begin to act like I'm peeing. Before I could grab my belt buckle the stall door swings open. I turn to push the intruder out, but it's to late. Samuel grabs me and plants a warm vibrant kiss upon my lips. The deep smell of musk tickles my nose and I'm drowning in his lust of enchantment. I could die with our lips locked right now. I open my eyes to see someone watching us with a look of disgust, but I close my eyes and throw my arms around his neck and let go of my insecurities that hold me from loving him.

I could scream and proclaim my love for him. Bam! My conscience kills me when it does this. It always keeps me from being a bad person by giving me the guilty emotions. The guilt cuts through me screaming Noland name. I guess I'm going to have to tell him and kill him like someone killed me.

So after school I call Noland. ''Hey would you be willing to meet me for lunch"? He exclaims '' of course I'm always willing to see you anytime I've been missing you like crazy". I hang up because I've decided I'm just gonna ditch Noland and never speak to him again. Samuel is my boyfriend and I don't owe Noland any explanation. Simply I suppose I could just stop communicating with him and ride off into the sunset with Samuel! Ha yeah right that is where he'll began.